Day 10: Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

YIRUMA will always be the songs to play in whatever mood im in. i loves all his piano collection albums but the favourite one is his 2005 album "Destiny of Love". it provides me the comfort and peace whenever i listen to his songs. =)

Day 9: Something you’re proud of in the past few days

i never have thought of pursuing master in the first place, yet here i am, about to finish my master. one of the main reasons why i chose to continue doing master is to be able to feel the hardship of doing thesis. i did not have much pressure in completing my research project during degree, because we done it in a group. so i only wrote chapter 1 and chapter 3 a little bit! haha. the rest were done by Azian and Baby. basically my degree life is a smooth sailing. 

i admit that conducting a research needs a full commitment. you need to continuously meet your supervisor or else there is no progress at all. communication is really important, and you need to know what you are doing. i encounter many students face problems in finishing their research, mostly is because they simply did not know what they were doing. moreover, many of them do not really have an idea or topic of research, therefore they ended doing their supervisor's research. there are pros and cons when you not doing your own research. all in all,  i may not be the most committed person but i believe i have done a great job! i have gotten the 70% mark from my supervisor last week, it is good enough for me to get a pass! haha. now only waiting for 30% marks from assessor.  A is no longer my concern, i only want to get it done! haha

i am not a bright student, but i do believe in a hard work, and prayers. haha. but my journey is not yet end, i need to struggle for final. i still feel a bit anxious about my research thou, i need to bind it into a full thesis, then i really can be fully satisfied! just pray for me so that i able to grad this sem ya! Blessed Christmas!!

Day 8: Short term goals for this month and why

i only can think of two at the moment:

first and foremost, my first priority is to finish converting my research project into journal and powerpoint. it doesn't really need lot of time to convert it, but i am still in the mood of Christmas. haha. besides, i am not really sure about the research findings, my supervisor is used to be active in politicking. he wanted to present my research in the parliament and i really not convinced with the outcome actually.

secondly is my 2012 resolution, i used to write 1 resolution during Gift Gathering long time ago. i wrote "before ended my degree, i need to find a partner." LOL! now i am going to finish my master, and i still have non and less than a week to achieve it! haha

by the way, today is Christmas Eve. as we preparing for the birth of Christ, let us love and forgive each other. may the joy of Christmas be with us in this blessed day. be merry, be happy!!! Blessed Christmas! 

Day 7: A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Growing in Faith Together (GIFT)

this is the logo of UTM Catholic Student Society called GIFT. every single person i met in GIFT are the angels in disguise, leaving GIFT is probably the hardest thing for me but i believe that the time has come. and GIFTers will always in my thoughts and prayers. =)

Food of thought

Before i start with this post, i just want to remind that this post could cause an 'allergic' reaction to some people. lol i want to write this because i'm afraid sooner or later, i forget about this. 

i had a longgggg conversation with my best friend last night. we were smsing until my phone broke down! its been a while we didn't have such discussion. so how do i start this? hhmm..

i'm sure many of us have this question "why am i still single?". this question never bothered me until recently. well, i think i am engaging into an emerging adult life where romantic relationship is very much important. many of the emerging adult, like myself are struggling to find their partners. many people are afraid to show that they are engaging in 'finding the partner' thing, afraid of people perception on how desperate you are in finding love. well for me, it is a healthy thing. if you not try to find your true love in this phase of life, you might suffer from a personal problem, unless you are planning to life in solitary.

i was asking Thommy "why am i still single? yet you guys have encounter so many relationship on and off" there are a lot of quotes about finding true love. one of my favourite is "i am single because God is writing the best love story for me". you can find different kind of quotes but the insight meaning is almost the same. it mention about waiting for someone good or better. and I do believe in such thing! waiting is the best thing to in finding the one. because someday, that person will suddenly appeared in my life and all i can do is just wait  for that moment. 

along the way, i might let down someone's feeling unintentionally simply because i don't feel that you are the one. it sadden me a lot frankly speaking, how i could not have the same feelings towards that person. 

I was asking another question to Thommy, "why until now, i haven't find the right one?" and he actually gave me a good answer for that. "how can i find the right one if i'm not doing the right thing? waiting is only a waste of time. why don't you make a move?" yet how do i know if i'm doing the right thing? i don't want to be the fall victim here. many things popped out from my mind. that shows how insecure i am. fear of rejection is one of my major infirmity. 

I assume that i have a good relationship with my friends, regardless whether male of female. i treated everyone equally. whenever i feel like loving, i show it without hesitation, i am not afraid to show my affection towards people. even i have a crush on you, i do not know how to show it in a special way. and people just thought that's Walton. he is like that, full of affection! maybe that is my problem, i have been waiting yet i'm not showing the right attitude. i may prompt some people to make them wait. haha is that so? it is just an assumption. 

to think of it, God is in the way writing my love's story. He is currently stuck in the chapter of 'Rejection'. he could not continue until i dare to face it. again, that is only an assumption. haha. i learned that i do have the option to wait or to strive for my happiness. waiting is good, but to strive for it, that is even better. you may likely ended with a disenchantment but trust me, it is a process of finding your true identity. that is a good thing you need to see.

pardon me for the absurd post. haha. what i'm trying to say is that, strive for your happiness. if that is not what you looking for, the end will tell you the hard way. you just need to prepare and hoping that it will teaches you to be a better person. and never lose hope!