PART OF MY LIFE

Restoran Orang Kampung

2012-01-07T01:30:00.003+08:00

finally, after two days of waiting, finally we had the opportunity to have lunch at the restoran.

given by the name of Restoran Orang Kampung, located at Taman Universiti, Skudai. very near to Damian's house actually. the cuisine of course is sarawkian food. u can find laksa sarawak, mee kolok, mee tomato and etc. hehe. this is my second time actually, first tym was during my first year. i blogged bout it previously. here is the link Sarawak food.. nyaman~ ^^

there is another sarawakian restoran at Plentong. i went there with the CMTs before. =) at night as usual, had our dinner at Number 1. hehe

today is my final paper for this sem! wohooo!! but i feel a bit tense, research method always one of the hardest subject for me. i just hope that i can answer all the questions.. huhu.. been reading a lot but still couldn't understand the concept. apa2 pun.. tawakal je la.. haha

new haircut.. hoho

2012-01-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

went to get a haircut yesterday afternoon. wrong timing! coz chinese new year is near, so the price rising up to more than half of the exact price. huhu.. again, i get my front hair straighten. haha..

after less than 5 hours, i washed my hair after playing futsal. haha cannot stand the smell actually. these are some of the cam whoring session i did while stdying just now.. =))

i kinda like it actually hoho..

Program Tautan Kasih Menyemai Ilmu

2012-01-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

skemanya tajuk! haha..

we had a community program with the orphan at Pontian during the last day of 2011. last time we went to the juvenile.

this time was a bit relax, as we divided into two teams. one team is responsible for the talk and another team was the BBQ team. haha.. i was in the BBQ team. so i didnt know what was actually happened in the hall.

but i'm glad we had this session, i got to know some of my classmate in the Social Psychology class. majority of them are highschool teachers, we talked a lot during the BBQ session. it's good to have adults as your companions sometimes. haha

i arrived at UTM around 11.30pm. GIFTers were having new year party at Edrin's house, but im not in the mood of chilling around. so i ended up spending the last hours of 2011 in my room. watching fireworks alone. haha.. i ended my 2011 alone eventually. but deep inside, i'm very grateful, despite all the challenges and hardship, i managed to went through 2011 successfully. the highlights of 2011 is definitely about my sister's wedding. that was the most meaningful event of 2011 for me. =) not to be forgotten, i got my bachelor degree at 2011. hoho

so here are some of the pictures taken during the program.

THE END

2011-12-13T01:22:00.001+08:00

if u remember, last time i posted about a love triangle that hit my friend . u can read it by clicking it here Something for us to contemplate and ponder. read it before u proceed to this entry. =)

so the story came to end a couple weeks ago.

and i bet most of you will have the same prediction. at last, the girl have chosen to go back to his bf. my friend? well, i really wanted to say this to him' "tulah, kan sy dah ckp!" haha.. but nice of me, i didn't say that.

so what's the lesson of it? do u think that my friend is the one that loss the most? or the girl? or neither?after so much sacrifice and hope, he ended up got nothing. he failed to win over the girl. in fact, the girl just dumped him without saying sorry or giving any explanation. if i were him, i surely gone mad. really.

for me, there is no loss or win. there is a quote saying that "it is not the destination that important, but the journey itself". i'm sure this journey has taught him a lot, to be more mature in choosing life partner. he is lucky enough to have the full support from his family and friends, whom love him and will always cares. this experience has open up his eyes to be more aware of the people that actually cares for him. thank God for that.

i'll always pray for his happiness. i'm sure he'll find a girl which deserves him better. =)

goodbye November, Hello December

2011-12-08T10:11:00.001+08:00

berkulat suda blog sy x update2 haha..

nothing much to say, i just upload the pics. these are some of the event/activities happened last month until present.. =))

CMT wellspring. at Perling,

Foundation Education 2 presentation by the Iranian =) we have presentation almost every class. bored =.=

choir and x'mas practice =))

Alternative Education Program (AEP) for Orang Asli.

Philo and Ben as the leader for this program

joined Andreas and the team for steamboat dinner. the celebration was for the MJFF, they won the best cinematography and best long video.

Gift Faith Formation by Bro Leslie. he taught different kinds of Prayer. interesting session!

Dynamics of Leadership Class. one of my fav class! full of presentation and discussion. =D

some of my close friends in the class. the right pic is syafiq. presentation during FOE 3. presentation again =.=

this is not nov event. haha. steffi spent the weekend with us! sempat main boling and karaoke jak. hope u had fun! hehe

CMT orientation on 4th of Dec. interesting session by Edrin and the CMTs =DD

International Culture Festival (ICF) dinner. the performance was good. but the food? sucks!!!!!!!!

dad bought the shirt two years ago but it was too large haha.. i really like it so i went to alter. aha.. =))

a day with the juvenile

2011-10-19T03:04:00.001+08:00

this is an experience which i really need to share. =) it was an eye-opening experience for me.

we went to Asrama Ahklak (L) Kempas for our community project which is under the social psychology subject. i always have anxiety when it comes to new things/experiences. i think of negative things more compared to the positive usually haha. we are going to deal with the juvenile, in other words, the criminals committed by the under-aged. so i have this mixed feelings before the event.

upon arrival, we directly went to the hall and prepared for the course. during the registration, i was observing the kids, mostly are malays and a few chinese and none indian. the first session was a talk by our program director, Sufi. i must admit that he's a very good speaker. the talk was successful even thou there were some naughty sounds came from the back. some of the trainer were touched by sufi's talk, some of them were break down. i can see the regrets and was converted by their false doing.

after the talk, we had LDK. i was not a facilitator but i joined Andrina team. my team consists of Abg Rozi, Kakak Suhaidah (if im not mistaken, haha) and Andrina as the facilitators.Abg Rozi and kak Suhaidah are English teacher. and the trainers are asyraf, jia ler, iqbal, nazri, firdaus and luqman.

during the activity, we managed to ask them to share about their personal things. why they ended up here and what crime their committed. many of them have urine case, which is related to Syabu. other than that, bulglary etc. among 6 of them, only 1 didnt tell us what crime he committed. they said his crime is a severe one. so we didnt ask further. for the other groups, the are cases such as rape too. they were between ages of 12-18!

there was a session where they need to list down their good and bad qualities.most of them have the similar bad quality which is very easily influence by peers. but the good thing is, most of them have good living skills! they know how to cook and do many practical things! i was ashamed of myself actually. the hardness of life has taught them many things. in order to survive, they work and done by themselves. but sadly, they picked the wrong companions which leads them to the misconduct.

the final activity was a bit tense and frightening. the activity required a good team work and understanding, but the problem was, the trainers mostly have short tempered. they easily get angry and impatient. so some of them were quarreling and almost had a fight. huhu

what i can see from this course is that, the juvenile are born with family problem mostly. they were raised up in a bad environment. they did not get the proper shelter and guidance from their family. i was so grateful cause God has chosen them, they still have the opportunity to be better in the future. still many of them in the society and its getting worse.

after all the session ended, they came to us asked for signature and facebook. haha. i approached that 16 years old boy. which i meantioned earlier, i asked him about the crime he committed. i told him i really want to know but its ok if he refuse to tell. but he replied me eventually. he said he only can decribe his crime similar to 'tikam tak mati'. i never expected such answer. without asking him more, i thanked him for being sincere.

i was sad, really2 sad. i went to my friend and ask her what is actually the meaning of it, and i'm sure you all can guess it. the boy looks very nice to me. after the photo session, i was reluctantly to go back. there was something hindered me to go. the curiosity of me to know the boy even more. so before went back, i went and took pictures with him. i was moved by his final words, 'abang belajar rajin-rajin k". u know, when u give motivation to someone, it is u whom get motivated more. especially when u get the positive words from the person u giving motivation to. u never know how much effort they need to say that.

i pray that god blessing will always with them, and i believe they will become a successful person in the future. =)

the need to line up whenever the session ended. counting the members.

writing their group name - ROCKSTAR!

The boy is in the red circle

from left above: jia ler, iqbal, asyraf, nazri, firdaus
from left below: andrina, me, abg Rozi, luqman

final pics =(

CSS ROCK Welcoming Juniors Fellowship

2011-09-19T11:24:00.002+08:00

i went to Batu Pahat yesterday along with Bro Leslie and Clement. as a newly appointed CMT, this is one of my job; to join any activities conducted by students from every CSS in MJCC. CSS ROCK is actually under Clement supervision. whereby Edrin and i are responsible for Melaka side which is CSS LIFE, FAITH and GRACE.

frankly to say, CSS ROCK have the most members compared to other CSS. maybe bcoz they combined IPTO, UTHM and another 1 college, i forgot the name. haha. upon entering their church - St. Henry church. almost 1/3 coming is the student. Kelly told me the number of students whom not attended mass is bigger than whom attended. in my opinion, maybe it is bcoz of transportation problem. the church is very far from their place actually. its like Skudai to CIC, JB. Bro leslie also mentioned that ROCK got the farthest church from their college compared to other CSS. im sure if they have a catholic center near to their place, ROCK will be more active.

the fellowship started rite after their cultural mass ended. ow ya, forgot to mention that CSS GIFT also has organized their fellowship a day before. the purpose is to entirely mixed between juniors and seniors. also to introduce GIFT briefly to the juniors.

CSS ROCK fellowship purpose also very similar to GIFT. their intended to welcome the juniors to their family. they had praise and worship led by their president, Geoffery. playing games and sharing. the fellowship ended at about 1pm. from the gathering yesterday, i saw there is no difference between ROCK and GIFT. i can feel the comforts and homey feeling during the gathering. =)

im now a CMT but still a GIFTers, my outlook must also change. so i must cater and serve all CSS the same. my hope for CSS ROCK is to get a catholic center adjacent to their college. im sure there will be more students actively involved. =)

ROCKers.

Geoffrey (i cant rotate the pic)

Games session

i enjoyed this games~ haha

another game

ROCKers have more than 30 juniors but only 9 managed to come. some of them went back early. (the girl is not a junior. haha)

15/9/2011

2011-09-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

1st week of lectures has passed. tmrw is public holiday so no class! =)

my schedule is very occupied. i have morning class 9-12pm every monday, tuesday and friday. meanwhile i have class from 4-7pm everyday except weekends! i got 6 subjects for this sem but total of 10 credits only. 3 subjects are education foundation 1 2 3. these subjects are not include in the credit hours. i only have to attend the classes. research will only started next sem.

this week i only attended three classes. which is foundation of education 2 & 3 and social psychology. for the starting, its kinda interesting actually. da environment is totally different from undergraduate time. my classmates are mostly from different backgrounds. some r from other courses, some r teachers, some are married n got kids.. talking with a working adult is very different compared to the full time stdy adult. luckily i had adult learning subject during degree, i learned about adult learning styles. so i got some pictures of how they will react in class. haha frankly to say, working people tend to ask many questions. sometimes i feel a bit rude for students to ask questions in that 'manner'.

for the time being, i dun have prob in adapting the new environment. i enjoyed the classes and companies. i have my own transport now, its very convenient to b able to go anyway and its really save time and energy. but the car is not in a good condition to drive far. money is a big issue for me this sem, i dun have any sponsorship for my master. im trying my bez to cut my budget esp the fuel. im staying far from fac actually. ive been trying to get room at nearer colleges but its full at the moment. for now, all my concern is about the improvement of the car. i owez had this insecurity while driving. as well as the passenger safety.

what else? hmm.. o ya, im a newly appointed CMT, haha! i never thought of becoming a CMT actually. bro leslie texted and invinted me to join their group. again, im working with a bunch of working adults. haha! the first meeting was a bit shocked for me. GIFT meeting is much more relax compared to CMT meeting. the first meeting started at 10am and finished at 6pm! with all the brainstorming and critical analysis session, i felt like my head gonna explode. too much absorbed information. haha but i took this thing as an opportunity for me to be more responsible and mature. i need to go out from my comfort zone and trying something new. im dealing with something big now. i know some people may thinks dat Master is a simple matters. ive decided to take this road therefore i need to do it earnestly.

i know my blog has become increasingly boring with no pics. i just hope that this new journey gives me a zillions of great memories to be shared with all.

here r some of the pics i took recently. haha

my new matric card

transferring my things

Postgraduate briefing

ramai2 makan d Num1 =)

view from my room

do pray for my success ya. as i owez done the same for each and everyone of u.. =)

im officially a postgraduate student! =D

2011-09-08T19:04:00.000+08:00

i never have a plan on pursuing master b4, but here i am, in UTM again. holding a title of postgraduate student. haha. im very grateful for dat.

some people may says its for da title. but for me, its a huge burden. frankly, im scared. i dun know whether i can survive this or not. this is bigger thing. i dun pushed myself to da max during degree, my CGPA is consider average. but thanks to UTM, im still accepted for master. im staying in KTGB nw. very far from faculty. luckily im using my bro's car. but still da prob with the fuel. its consider far to go fac from my place. da room is quite big for a single room. my college is available for single room only. im staying at the top floor which is level 8!

da registration day was kinda tiring. arrived at the register counter at 9am. and i got no 236! after 3 hours da no only reached 27! waited until 6 o'clock to settled everything. this year postgraduate students including master and phd is increasing massively. da students intake for degree is decreased. the vice canselor said dat the entry pointer for this year undergraduate student is 3.47. dat is very high! so the advantage goes to the postgraduate student.

da feeling isnt the same. im still adapting the new environment thou..

a new journey awaits

2011-09-02T23:55:00.002+08:00

for some of u might know dat im going to continue taking master. i juz received my offer letter thru email last saturday.

da course im taking is educational psychology. an education course actually. haha. it was my first choice for UPU, but i failed for MEDSI exam, so i ended up got da 2nd choice which is HR. throughout 3 years of stdying it, i realised dat it is not my actual interest. but i like it more compared to science subject. i never felt over-stressed or tension while doing this course. i only felt the tense during final exams. haha. the only thing that makes me felt difficult is the law and finance subjects. i never tried to understand it frankly, i hate that subject mayb bcoz of da lecturers teaching. i dun really like the way they taught. sorry.

i canot see my future as a HR executive, i dun think dat i can survive long in this profession. haha. i know i shud try before jumping into conclusion. in fact, i really dont know whether this psychology course is really what i want. but i juz follow my guts. this is wat i like initially. no harm to go back and start again. im still young and capable of doing it. so y not?

besides, i dun know whether i can survive this. its only 40 credit hours. minimum of 3 sems. i hope i can finish it on schedule. this is a new life for me. i know i must work twice harder. im going to buy all the books! that is my first priority.haha! so much need to change actually. im not going to disappoint my family.

my new journey will begin on monday. registration day is on the 6th of sept. money is the big issue for this month. so much kaching going out. huhu.. our convo will be on the 23rd-26th sept. all my family members will b attending except my mom.

well dats it for the update, i guess im going to blog actively again. =D

something for us to contemplate and ponder

2011-07-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

i have a guy friend whom trapped between a love triangle. a pure and virgin heart never been in a relationship b4. for the first tyme in his life, he falling for a girl. unfortunately he fell for a girl that was already owned by another men. his love for her is very sincere and deep. he decided to wait and keep hoping that one day the girl will have chosen him. the girl told the guy to try harder in order to win over her's.

they secretly met each other almost everyday, afraid people would know their relationship. everyone knew the gurl had a boyfriend back in hometown, it would be a total humiliation for both of them if anyone know about their secret. one will be accused as unfaithful, another will be accused as the third party.

but at the end, people started to aware about their concealed relationship. everyone talked behind, people were rebuking them. but the guy never care about other people perceptions. his love is pure towards the girl. he loves her so much and willingly to be criticizes by others.

their relationship was no longer a secret. the boyfriend knew his girlfriend is unfaithful. but he still wants to b with her and refused to let her go. my friend did ask for answer from the girl. forcing her to choose between them. but she cannot make the decision. she cant afford to lose either one. for me, that is a very hypocrite and selfish thing. an unwise decision.

day by day, the feeling of love growing substantially. the guy willing to sacrifice everything for the girl, his money, time and energy. hoping to win over the girl's heart. but yet nothing happened.

sometimes the guy cries in silence. thinking bout y such thing could happen to him. has he done anything wrong and sinful? i know him as a very gentle and kind companion. a very discipline and obedient son. sadly he was blinded by the wrong girl. he become so pathetic in the name of love. he loves a wrong girl since the beginning. he knew what would be the ending but yet refused to accept the reality. he was so weak to withdraw from the game that he knew he will never win. he's hoping for some miracle to happen, that miracle, that is the only thing that keeps him alive everyday.

he was lost in a tunnel, he saw lights at the very end, but yet still far from reaching even thou he walked many miles. he keep on walking until his strength is none. by dat tym he became so tired.. frustrated.. angry and stupid. he wants to go back but the road had lead him to far from the beginning. but he's afraid what lies in front. there's another branch of road, but it is absent from lights. he can heard some voices whispering to him to take the other road, but his knees are shaking and numb.

love should not be blamed, love is a most great thing ever created by God. it is not our fault to fall in love with someone. we may loves a serial killer, a drug addict, terrorist or even a whore. we cant help it. people are born with love. God created human with love.

when someone loves u sincerely, dont ever play with their heart.. love should be embrace and valued. it is very sacred thing and should not be corrupted. ever.. do not accept love if u cannot appreciate it, someone out there is more deserves to have that.

1st post during holiday

2011-07-06T12:41:00.001+08:00

...........

haha.. i dunno how to start this post actually. i try to come out with words yet my head is stuck and blank. i have came to the half road of my 4 months holiday. did i mention dat i actually had finish my 3 years degree? haha. well now u know.

3 years surely had passed rapidly. i barely remember wat did i gain during that period of time. convocation date as written in the academic calender will be on 23rd until 27th of september. if im not mistaken. im kinda upset with my CGPA, i shud done better to get the medal =(

ive been doing some unproductive things nowadays.. i sleeps more than 10 hours per day. watching tv series, dramas and on9 for almost 6 hours per day. i sits more than walks. i spent 3/4 of my day in my room.. seems like my dad didnt let me find any part tym job. he prefers me staying at home. become a very successful domestic engineer.. haiz.. im planning to continue master after this. but i havent receive any approval letter of email from the faculty. i applied for educational psychology taught course. hehe.. a lecture soon-to-be.. God's will =)

i bought 2 rabbits 1 month ago. but unfortunately the female died couple weeks ago due to diarrhea. huhu. i googled and obtained some information about rabbits guide. we cannot buy a rabbit if it is less than 8 weeks old. they must be in their mother protection long enuf to get sufficient antibody. i bought da rabbits when they only 1 month old. without parents guidance, it is easier for them to suffer from infection especially intestine. juz like mine. =( but da male is doing great now.. seems like he dont have any health prob.. =) but i can see dat hes lonely, living alone without partner, i cant bear to have that feeling of lose again =(

apart from that, i helped Bruno for the preparation of MR Kaamatan. da grand final was on the 25th last month. we went to penampang along wit Ben to search for tradisional costume. but ended nothing.i accompanied him to the rehearsal at Beverly Hotel. i did not attend the preview nite at Edgar's - a Pub. hahaha... well i dun go to dat place, wait until i learn how to 'drink' and dance. haha.. but i heard it was fun and excited nite. but i managed to go for the grand final of MRK at Beverly hotel. i was afraid im sitting alone at da table so i asked Lorna to accompany me. the entrance ticket cost rm60 per person. a lot more cheaper than Miss Earth Sabah. it was rm500 per ticket! dat was my first tym attending a male pageant competition. Bruno whom represented Inanam,-our hometown , did not get into the top 10. but he won Mr Personality. he really deserved it! and we really had fun dat nyte. da performances by Lola and other 'Queens' surely cheered da audience present...

well i think dats it... =)

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia

2011-03-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

SPM results juz released a couple weeks ago.. im sure many of ur younger bros and sisters had a wonderful result. =) i recalled dat day.. i still remember clearly how i received my results... haha

dat early morning i woke up by a sudden calling by manuel... he told me dat he got 10 As. i knew dat day spm results was going to be announced. still with the muddled face, i congratulated him for the awesome results. im not surprised by his results thou, he struggling hard and putting huge effort in his stdies.. he such a hardworking boy.. he deserved it =)

i instantly called my school office, i didnt go to kuching to get my results coz its an exception for the sabahan , our results will be posted by mail =)). and something funny happened during the conversation. the woman asked my personal details at first, then she said she only gonna mention da gred num, for example A1, only mention 1.. and so on.. only God knows how nervy i am! hahaha. so she began with 1,1,2 and suddenly 5, 6, 6!!! hahahaha..

i didnt expect to get any worst than that, so i asked her again, is it Walton Wider results? luckily she got da wrong person.. hahaha.. da actual results? plus all the numbers, i got 19.. better than dat person i guess.. =) thnk God..

A picture worth a thousand words

2011-03-28T01:35:00.002+08:00

this are some of da pics in my hand phone which i captured through out this month.. =)

this happened when 120 blankets are compressed in a proton iswara.. hahahaha!

120 blankets collected!!! this is for the 1 blanket 4 japan campaign =))

bought it at pest convo.. rm9 per blanket.. =) btw, da quality is quite good =))

happy pakcik dpt rm1k hnya satu mlm.. hehe

CCM presentation! =)

sis maze got a new car during her bday on mac 22nd =)

Law discussion with cepet and da geng.. =.='

hahahahahaha! muka tension bt thesis.. 7hours in da library =.=..

baby.. my group mate.. she is da expert for thesis writing! haha

yan.. my another groupmate.. dia cool jak ni.. x tension2. ahhahaa

thnx radhi for helping us wit the SPSS =)) very appreciated it =))

finished binding our thesis final draft. will be submited tomorw to our supervisor Prof Madya DR Esa.. hopefully no more editing huhu

every student are compulsory to change their matrc cards to the new one with chip. see da difference? not much huh. hehe

went to CIC for sunday mass after attended borneo nyte da previous day.

before Borneo Nyte started. took this pic at the 'bilik cermin' with the performers =)

12:46 am

2011-03-27T00:46:00.001+08:00

Dear Heart :

sorry for today. u had to carry so much pain and disappoinment. but im sure u'll get use to it eventually... i'll owez pray to God. to heal the wound..

juz give me some time to make things rite.. =)

01:32 AM

2011-03-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

dear heart : to be happy is to make our loved one happy.

i really want u to b happy. even thou it is painful for me to see dat. how i wish i can b ur happiness.

heart, u nid to stop feeling dat... pliz

12:34am

2011-03-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

dear heart : be strong.. be patient.. when da time is right.. everything will b yours.. juz hold on no matter wat.. =)

rambut oh rambut

2011-03-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

if u ask me which part of my body i like da most, my answer is definitely my hair. haha.. =)

typical 1st year 1st sem boy's hair huh? hahahahaa skema!

fully straightening my hair during 2nd sem. haha

my fav hair was during 3rd sem.. =))

started to dye my hair during 4th sem =)

hair started to damage during 5th sem. too much chemical! huhu

fnal sem, back to basic ..

skrang teda luit mo buat rambut suda.. hahaha..

Borneo Night 2011

2011-03-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

Venue: Dewan Sultan Iskandar, UTM

Date : 12th March 2011

Theme : Tradisional Modern

just arrived =) wearing my dad kdzndusun traditional attire =)

from left : kdnzdusun, bidayuh, iban, orang ulu, bidayuh =)

wit queen of da nyte- bunga =)

nice sari wore by Luvli =)

da arrival of VIP

wit awesome Jim! =)

wit sexayyy ica =)

kamu jak jadi emcee kan. ahaha

with caring hazel =)

ni la jadi lau lagu sabah dipasang. haha

sy ma ica mana2 dinner kompem yg duluan p menari hahahaa

with Anthea and bro Milt

king of da nyte- Aurel! =))

hidup orang borneo! haha

photos taken from Rodney and Eric Husley

MJCC Dinner 2011

2011-03-17T22:04:00.001+08:00

Venue : Restoran Salim, Perling, Johor

Date : 5th March 2011

Theme : Hawaiian

emcee for dat nyte =) emie and othniel

pantang dengar lagu sabah!

da food for superb! =)

wit macho frankie =)

my table =)

farewell party for fr. jojo =(

wit gorgeous Elisa =)

wit pretty bunga =)

wit sweet man lee =)

ex-mrsm kch =) juniors and senior

my little fellow of orang asli =)

some of the lucky people! haha

GIFTers terchenta!

MJCC seniors huhu

cant fit everyone inside haha.. =)

photos taken from Rodney and Jason law =)

endless sickness

2011-03-16T01:13:00.001+08:00

antibody is currently at the lowest state =( ive been under the weather since last week.. after had a terrible flu and fever. experienced migraine, and now food poisoning for the 2nd tym. only God knows how suffering i am =((

da illness hindering me to revise for test juz now. da dizziness owez stopped me from reading the book.. so i ended up sleeping.. i really hate sickness! i cant do anything except laying on da bed whole day =((

im feeling slightly better now.. after so much pains and diseases. i should take good care of my body.. especially the foods and drinks that i consumed. i seldom exercise nowadays. i really cant accept any sickness again.. i have tons of assignments to submit. and i dun have enuf tym if i keep on unwell.. besides i really dun wan to get sick again.. it drains my energy excessively and i cant afford to keep my head on the water anymore.. =(

plus, being ill is like homesick. haha.. when i get sick, all i wan is da comforts from my parents. they r da only person dat can give me da serenity that nobody can offers. how they take care of me is like a magic! da touch and supervision really make me feel good! i miss my mom chicken porridge. she will scolded me when i didnt take my medicine in time. well, im very grateful to have a nurse momy =)

i know i know.. i sound like a little boy.. haha.. im sure u'll feel da same when u get sick.. no one can give the comforts the way our parents do..

dear body, get well soon! =)

late nite love song.. haha =)

2011-03-11T00:32:00.001+08:00

i dunno whether i shud post this or not, i think its a gud thing to share wit everyone.

have u ever heard of "if u love 2 person in da same time, choose the 2nd one, if u truly love da 1st one, u wouldn't find da 2nd."

it happens to my friend. he's a very innocent with a purely heart kind of guy. never been in a relationship until he met this gurl and fall in love. he's a very fine looking guy, lots of gurl admires him. he dun have any particular characteristic when it comes to finding partner. his heart will automatically said "she's da one!!" even thou dat gurl is da ugliest person in da world.

people said dat the 1st love is da hardest to let go. im not really know. i never have dat feeling yet. haha.. this friend of mine really committed with this gurl. he tried hard to win over the gurl's heart. after sometimes, he was brave enough to express his feeling towards her. surprisingly that gurl has oredy attached with someone else. but he didnt pulled out, but still patiently wait the gurl to accept his sincerity.

at the same time, da gurl put so much hopes on him, telling him not to give up to win over her heart. the innocent guy whom deeply in love will do anything as long as the gurl whom he adored will live happily. he doesnt care what people thinks and says, coz he loves her muchly. the gurl hitherto still havent decide which one. and yet the guy still patiently waiting for her..

it is even resentful to heard the story entirely, i have no right to judge people, u might say that the guy is a dumb or the gurl is a wicked.. we never know what actually happens between them. but the main thing i wanted to point out is, how much can u give for love??? how much can u sacrifice??? is it worthy for the sake of love? when u didnt get wat u want did u ever blamed love? did u thought dat love was no longer present when u'd split up wit ur gf/bf? have u ever thought about this? some says that love is blind, love is painful. .bla bla bla.. for me love is the greatest thing ever created by God. whatever thing goes wrong, dun ever blame love. blame yourselves 1st! some people changed religion for the sake of love, do u think love shud b da cause?

there is only 1 person whom i think have shown what is the exact meaning of love. Jesus died on the cross and suffered for sins. some people might not recognized him, but bcoz of the love for the mankind, he willingly to die for us so that we could be forgiven. that is the eternal love.

thus, love the people around u with whole-heartedly... ur families, friends and loved ones =)

09032011

2011-03-09T23:54:00.004+08:00

a funny incident happened yesterday..

i was sitting beside my friend in da bus back to hostel. an old malay song is filled in da air,i didnt know da title. she told me da song reminded her of her after-broke-up condition, she kept listening to dat song. menjiwang sendiri la.. haha so we were chatting,

me : " kesian tul lau xpernah kapel tym uni ni kn?"

she :"haha.. u npe x cari 1?"

me :"haha.. dah xde org nak.."

she :"eleh.. u yg xnak.."

me :"ntah la.. mayb belum lagi kot.."

she :"i rasa u xsesuai la kapel ngan pempuan.. u baik sgt.."

me :" HAH!?!?"

she :"kalau u dah kapel nanti msti u dah xjadi baik..."

haha... i burst out wit laughter after dat... mayb dat make sense y im still single till now.. =)

Ash Wednesday

2011-03-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

when comes to the Ash Wednesday.. a past incident will appeared unconsciously..

it happened when i was in my standard 5 in mrsm, non-muslim activities was banned during that period. it is bcoz of one incident which caused a chaos for the entire school. one week before i entered MRSM, the non-muslim activities was conducted as usual, dat day they performed some ritual which coz hysterical phenomenon among da students. it was very bad, some of the victims were sent home for several weeks. after that incident, da non-muslims are prevented from conducting any kinds of religion-related activities.

but the rosary went as usual, we done it concealingly. but no more praise and worship session. sadly, we hardly get da permission to attend any special church occasions. for example, Ash Wednesday.

Melissa is our so-called non muslim leader at dat tym, shes a very faithful christian in my perception. no doubt bout it. a very kind and soft-spoken gurl =) she has arranged everything so dat we all can attend the Ash Wed mass. She managed to get some 'van sapu' and got the permission from the principal. but before we departed, we got bad news from Melissa, the principal had pull back the permission. she told us that 'van sapu' is not allowed. everyone were dressed up in their baju batik was force to go back hostel. and the principal only provided us the old-obsoleted MRSM mini van. i dunno y he didnt allow us to use the big bus, at least can brought half of us. at da end, its only da form 5 male students went to the mass. we shared the ashes to everyone back at school. outlined the cross mark at our frens forehead. it was a very meaningful day for us. everyone were shed wit tears. especially Melissa. =')

it taught us dat, in whatever obstacles we faced, da blessing of God will owez present. if u can overcomes it, eventually u'll get da biggest reward. u juz need to have faith in Him.

father deliver a very interesting homily juz now. he said that the ash is only an ash, u can throw it away if u want, i recalled da same thing bro leslie have said during SS, the bible is only an ordinary book if u dun know the inner-meaning of it, u can throw it if u want to. da important is how u perceived da ashes and da bible. its a symbol to keep reminding us.

"da ash is a reminder for us dat God's spirit is in our heart"

happy holy weeks guys! =)

bonchet!!!

2011-03-04T12:21:00.001+08:00

this is da 2nd post for today. im bored. sorry

we went to Giant. Umall after dinner, my bro and i wanted to buy hair colorant. i went to measure my weight. 56.9kg! im not surprised wit da scale, coz i knew im getting distended nowadays. haha! i seldom jog this sem, but i'll make sure i wear my New Balance sport shoe at least once a week. haha.. but da stamina has gone, i only capable of running 3km per day. dats da maximum! hahaha.. so i ended up playing volleyball instead. but i have some personal issue with some of da players. i rather not to play.. again, proses memboncettkan diri la last2 ahaha

i miss da running track carpet smell. i fairly forgot da smell now.. =(

i saw some of my frens pics in FB. some of them still actively participated in athletic. good for them =) sory guys i took some of ur pics without permission haha..

Vithiaa is da 1st indian gurl i ever met.. and my 1st Hindu friend. =) met her during SIPMA.. she likes to run a lot! haha.. keep joining marathon through out m'sia.. currently stdying in USM =)

Deyl the muscular boy.. he got a very well-build body! haha.. very passionate in athletic.. currenty running for U-team. im not sure whether hes getting good or UMS running out of athletes. i used to b good than him. so to speak. (hahaha!.. i told u i used to b.. now not anymore... aha) great job deyl!

Bani is not an exception! we chat several days ago.. he has da same story as i am.been out of da team since high school. but he managed to back to track.. he decided to take part in da athletic again.. guess wat? he still got da sparks! haha.. he obtained silver for his fav event -400m. wit juz 1 week of preparation. but still, da records was far from his bez.. he will b competing in inter-poli athletic tournament.. im sure he'll carry da day. =)

Bani is on da right

Bunga told me juz now, people whom participated in SIPMA will automatically feasible to get sports scholarship. matrculation student is very easy to get.. we didnt know dat! Sir Zam gave me da sports scholarship form but im not sure whether i qualified or not. so i didnt fill it.. sayang nyaaaa...

im hungry.. a 3 in 1 nesvita with crackers sounds nice.. haha! 3 more kilos to go! yoshhhh!!

Friday

2011-03-04T11:26:00.003+08:00

hai guys.. its been awhile since da last post i made. i have tons of things to catch up this days. huhu..frday usually is my blogging day.. haha..

i juz finished 3 tests.. da outcomes? not so good.. huhu.. this sem wont b an easy course i supposed. subjects kinda tough. especially law and OSH subject.. its really driving me crazy to read and memorize hundreds of act and section. =(

apart from dat, thesis is still going on.. da title for our thesis is work ethics among UTM lecturers. da hardest part is distributing questionnaires. i really disappointed towards da lecturers, they didnt give a fully cooperation in answering da questionnaires. we only have less than a month before the submission, n yet they didnt have da consideration.. =( dat shown how bad da work ethics among da lects.. agree? haha kidding.. we only ask for ur precious 5mins.. dats ol..

we will b having MJCC dinner tmrw at Restaurant Salim, Perling. it is an orang asli residence area. we usually conduct our AEP there. i know some people refused to join bcoz they thought dat it is not up to their standard. frankly to say, da place isnt a 5 star restaurant, it is located near to da sea. i have tried their food. its really delicious. =) there will b another celebration trmw.. it is the farewell party for father jojo. he will transfer to Philippine to b a lecturer. i think dats a better offer for him. hes a very knowledgeable person, wrote lots of books.. and im sure hes da most suitable person to b chosen. da theme for tmrw nyte is Hawaiian. cant wait for tmrw! =)

life seems constant nowadays. i sleep a lot! huhuhu.. i owez have this feeling of isolation. i only go out to eat, attending lectures and jogging. after that return back to my room doing assignments(seldom done. haha), sleep and revising for test.. i prefer it dat way.. keep on repeating da same routine, i verily know this feeling..its not good. i often avoids any social activities too.. well sleep is da worst part.. =(

this sem gonna ended soon.. i just hope to b able to graduate on time. da rest? im not so sure. i juz follow da preordained course make by God. pray hard and work hard! =)

i had a haircut.. haha. very short c(=

have u ever heard of the prettiest face is the juz-woke-up face. hahaha

GIFT Sister's Night 2011

2011-02-20T14:57:00.002+08:00

sister's nyte was held on valentine eve - 13 of february. da venue is at Skudai Catholic Centre. da theme for the event is LOVES - Loving Our Very Excellent Sisters. the theme is actually suggested by Othniel. hehe.. da main objective is to show our appreciation toward sisters. =) da dress code for that nite is 'wear ur most favourite color'.

da event started 15 mins late with all da brothers welcoming the sister by putting a rosette on every sisters. da rosette is made by straw and ribbon. creative huh! it was mattheus idea. hehe

a video was shown before the opening prayer led by Rodney. ben was
the emcee.. i wanted a 1st year brother to b da host. .. haha. senior soon wont be here anymore. need to find a new talent. n alister was gud enuf to help him wit dat role. =)

da 1st performance was by the 3rd year brothers.. they performed two songs. Hero by Enrique and Dayung Salau - composed by Dell. it is a very gud song! u can listen to the song below. =) dell and aurel sang it beautifully.

next was game session by Felix. it is called the passing message.. appetizer is served during the game. chicken puff cooked by Jim and da gang. da comments? awesomely delicious! =)

after dat, da 1st year performance. they performed a play on the St Valentine's history. they only took 2 hours to practice. everyone were so talented and gave 100% during the practice.. i was so impressed wit their commitments. not only dat, they actually came out with tons of gud ideas for this event. i recalled my 1st year, did seniors perceived me as a person wit full of passion? hmm.. i can see dat da sisters were enjoying da play, da laughters and joys.. dat is wat i wanted to see! =))

1st dish is served rite after da performance ended.. brothers were told to treat sisters well. foods and drinks are served by the brothers
. sisters were not allowed to stand up. basically brothers were the 'slave' for da sisters. haha.. kidding

then da 2nd game, the music guessing. sisters need to guess whos the singer and title of da songs. sorry sisters, actually da games supposedly have prizes. but we were to bz wit da deco and accidentally forgot bout da prizes. after da game ended, da 3rd performance was from the 2nd year brothers. a singing by Rayner with the help of Dennis and Awin. there were 3 songs. , each brother were given a friendship bracelet. it was made by brother themselves! i posted the instruction video in fb. y i choose red, white and black thread? haha.. i really dunno. =) many of us unsuccessful in completing the bracelet. some of them asked for new thread up to 3 times. haha.. i let them choose any pattern they like as long as it is hand made... so during the 2nd song, each brother picked a sister and tied da bracelet on their hand and took her to dance... da 2nd song was a slow one, and da 3rd song was a lively one. so everyone were dancing like crazy!, again dat is wat i want to see. da joy of every sister's face.. =)

when da 2nd dish is served, everyone are bloated already. haha.. da final performance was by the final year. it is indeed a touching moment. haha.. they make a video full of affection! frankly to say, i cried! haha.. nasib gelap masa tu. no one knew =)) da singing by alister was beautiful too.. u guys really make an awesome closing dat nyte =) before the event ended, there is an awards ceremony. total of 10 awards given. da winners r chosen by da highest votes by the brothers. =) da dessert is served during the award ceremony.

credits to Milton for the video!

Emie - miss friendly

Steffi - miss gladiator

Grace - miss dependable

Carol - miss loud

Patrissa - miss punctual

Valarie - presidential award

Philomina - miss apprentice

Anthea - miss cheerful

Hazelynna - miss caring

Lydia - miss cool

all in all, i wan to express my zillion thankfulness to all brothers especially to my committee for helping me from the beginning to the end. thnx for all da commitments. u all indeed da true HEROES for our sisters.. and to da sisters, i apologize for any weaknesses through out da event. n thnx for being supportive all this while. love ya! =)

pics taken from Chalana and Aswin. =)

to b continued.. =)

behind the curtain of GIFT Sister's Night 2011 (BM translation. LOL)

2011-02-19T16:00:00.002+08:00

milton was da director for previous sis nyte. it was 3 years ago. when i was in my 1st year. basically sis nyte is an event organized by the brothers to show their loves and appreciations toward sisters.

im appointed as the director for sis nyte during GIFT planning camp last year. im not in da committee anymore so i accepted it. i forgot that this sem is my final sem, so i was hesitating at first. im too busy wit final year project. i tried to find someone else to replace for the position. but unfortunately none of them willing. so decided to take da responsiblity.

i came out wit some ideas for the sis nyte. i really wan to make it a big event initially. haha.. thinking of doing a hollywood celebrity theme, or some kind of 1942 black and white Masquerade.. and many more. but it was ony written on da paper, MJCC will be organizing a dinner party too. money was da 1st thing pop out from my mind. hhaha.. people will ony choose 1 dinner to attend. and MJCC dinner will be da priority. its a big event compared to the sis nyte i supposed. haha. not only dat, i wanted to make this event as a fund raise.. GIFT money getting lesser and lesser nowadays.. =(

i asked some of the sister's opinion. some of them wanted it to b a relax and laid-back party. a bbq for instant..but i really wanted to make it a memorable event. thnx to my loyal friend - Mr Google. u helped me a lot! so i picked the appreciation party. it is usually organized by a company, to appreciate their workers by giving prices and awards. =)

im so glad dat i had a very awesome team working together. every departments has done a very tremendous job! im sorry guys coz i didnt properly introduced u during the event. it was my bad.. so i hope everyone read this =)

secretary : Alexander jr

treasurer and award : Othniel

program runner : Milton

food dept : Sheldon and jimmy

games dept : Felix

publicity and media : Joseph and Rodney

emcee : Alister and Ben

decoration : Ben

registration and transport : Mattheus

Technical : Aswin

we planned to organize da sis nyte on Valentine's day but due to some unavoidable matters, so we changed it to valentine's eve. but we already booked SCC and confirmed everything with Uncle David. so changing da date of the event was not a wise thing to do at dat tym. but still we need to go on. we started to get trouble during da nyte dat we supposedly stay at da SCC to work on da deco. but uncle did not allow. so we went to my room instead.

othniel folding da red roses. =)

13/2 8am. working on da decoration =) it was fun even though everyone looked tired. haha. theres a malay parable saying 'ku sangkakan cerah hingga ke ptg, rupanya mendung d tengahari'.. it happend to us. after almost finished wit da deco. uncle david came. with dat unease facial expression, he told us to removed all da tables and chairs. coz chinese group wil be using da hall for catechism classes. but things get even worse when da parishioner came and told us dat they already booked da tables for their cap goh meh celebration. so we removed everything. i tot dat everything was ruined. i havent done with da rehearsal and im afraid everything will be a mess. im sorry guys if i said any bad words. im juz too tense..

im totally out of mood after dat. im easily disturbed when things is not run according to my plan. haha.. its hard for me to get up and said 'everything is fine. juz dont give up..' n all i can do is prayed. asking for guidance. but somehow deep inside me, i knew its going to b a successful event. i juz need to believe. coz God is always in me. im not alone. n i have a bunch of great people helping me.. suddenly i have this strength..a great feeling! i have a name for it. it is called 'HOPE'.. =))

i owez believe.. when u do something, do it wit whole-heartedly. let love present.. and people will feel it. =))

my 22nd bday =)

2011-02-19T12:32:00.002+08:00

celebrated my 22nd bday 9 days ago with da Gifters.. hhaha.. it has been 3 years i didnt celebrates bday at home. but GIFTers owez b there to replace my family. love ya guys =)) thnx =)

a bunch of my delayed posts!

2011-02-16T12:53:00.000+08:00

this gonna b a longgggggg post with a bunch of pics.. haha =) this r some of the activities i had during mid sem break =))

30/1/2011 - GIFT Master Chef and BBQ

Jim : overall winner won three awards!

1st runner up, Anthea and Bunga

fel an hazel, won da appetizer

1/2/2011 - Alister's Bday celebration

minum2 d blik sheldon. haha

3/2/2011 - Pizza Hut Lunch and CNY dinner at edrin's house..

my 1st pizza for this sem. haha =)

edrin and jim combined cooking! nyummyy =))

men mercun! wohooo!!

sy kalah judi.. muflis! huhu

4/2/2011 - dinner at SSS, At jawa restaurant. forgot da name. .too unique to remember. haha.. da interior design is nice. and da food too. but da service? sucks! huhu..

5/2/2011 - GIFT Telematch and had Ayam Penyet for Dinner. melody xbuka, nasi lebihan tym telematch pun still banyak. daripada basi bgus mkn dengan ayam penyet! hehe =))

pasukan director program (aurel) menang! x aci!!! haha

6/2/2011 - went to Batu pahat to attend MJCC BotB meeting. went to Kelly's house. =) and jalan2 g Ayer hitam. i lost my less-than-a-week hp.. huhu

blik c rio.. aha =)

moto c dennis! baru kemalangan ni. huhu

hp ku yg hilang. huhu

well dats it.. spent my time mostly with da GIFTers.. my world wud b damn bored without da presence of GIFTers. still have 3 more months or less.. i hate to count da remaining day. =(

i will post the sis nyte pics tmrw.. kinda sleepy now.. looks like im not going to do da vlog challenge. too bz to make a vdeo i supposed.

adios!

finally =)

2011-01-25T21:30:00.002+08:00

i got my last semester exam slip today.. feels like wan to put it in da frame! hahahaha..

after 5 semesters, finally all da struggles paid off! haha.. i never get a dean list throughout my life! haha.. "thnk u God!" 1st thing came out from my mouth when i looked at my last sem results.. yg lagi buat sy happy, dapat 1st class =) but i need to get same result in order to get dean for overall pointer.. huhu..

i dun care wat people thought bout my course. i admit dat my course is among da easiest course in UTM. well, u can see a bunch of students get dean lists every sems! sometimes u need luck to get a gud results. university is not like secondary school. ur marks is fully determined by how u performed in ur exam papers. but in da university, its all depends on da lecturer themselves. they have da full authority on ur marks, if they dun like u, then u need to prepared for bad results. so u need to be gud in bodek membodek stuff.. and dat is not my style. sorry

from what i observe, there are 2 types of lecturer, local graduates and foreign university graduates. i prefer lecturers whom graduates from outside of malaysia. they are da truly professional lecturers. they evaluate u based on ur performances in class and never affected by ur appearance. some local graduates lecturers is very sensitive when it comes to appearance. wearing slippers, hair dyed and whatsoever. new academic will be use nex semester. how bout we practice a new rules too? we follow da foreign university academic calander why dun we follow their rules too? we can wear short pants to class. haha.. im sure da local graduates lecturers will protest..hahaha..

1 sem to go. hopes everything going well.. =)

Milton Bday celebration

2011-01-21T09:41:00.005+08:00

celebrated my bro 23rd bday on jan 15. after mass, we had a combined bday celebration for da january babies at melody. after dat went to my idol to celebrate milt bday. duit biasiswa belum masuk so canot buy present for u. haha.. =)

im turning 22 this year. wahh.. tua suda oo.. dlu tym kecil2 tgk orang yg berumur 22 tahun ni rasa macam besar suda.. skrang suda 22 tahun mcm rasa masi budak lagi. haha.. tua suda kan.. so tanggungjawab makin besar.. huhu

happy bday milt! wish u ol da bez in ur life undertakings.. happy owez =)

Chinese New Year Reunion dinner

2011-01-19T17:56:00.004+08:00

i was invited by my chinese coursemate to their CNY reunion dinner last nyte at Jess's house. we had steamboat. frankly to say, tat was my 1st experience eating together to celebrate cny.. haha.. im not chinese but i do speak mandarin.

i went to chinese primary and secondary school. i was bad in chinese subject during my primary school, therefore i decided not to take dat subject during highschool. haha.. being wit da chinese community allow me to use mandarin in everyday communications. haha. besides, i speaks mandarin wit my siblings at home. =)

even thou im stdied in a chinese school, but mostly my close frens were natives or malays. so i didnt get along wit da chinese. mayb bcoz mostly them are spoke hakka, im not gud wit dat. hahaha.. i only know some hakka nasty words.. hahaha

after i transfered to kch, i only had 2 chinese frens in dat school. my mandarin became poorer. haha.. practice makes perfect! if u dun speak it regularly, u will forget it eventually. when i was in matrx, i spoke mandarin quite often coz there were quite big nums of chinese..

i have probs making frens during my 1st year in utm, people tot tat im a chinese guy, moreover i know how to speak mandarin. but da probs is dat im not get along wit da chinese, dun get me wrong. im not a racist. its only my preferences, sometimes u tend to have a certain criteria when it comes to certain things. for example a partner, u'll find someone whom have da same interests or passions. u get wat i mean? i feel ease when i find da rite person. u can talk, share or do many things comfortably. im not saying dat i cant do all dat things wit da chinese. yes i can, but mayb less satisfied. haha

so, i tried to blend wit da malay guys, but i failed. i think mostly da sabahan or sarawakian faced this probs. correct me if im wrong, i talk based on me and my friends experience. =) but da gurls were good. they didnt have probs wit me. my female fren ever told me, da malay guys didnt wan to b my fren coz im a chinese, when she told them im not, they were surprised. from dat moment, we actually became frens.

it was slightly different back in my hometown, chinese and malays do fighting each other... im not denying dat.. wat makes da different is da existence of Us, da indigenous people of sbh and srwk. our numbers are small compared to other major races. we dun have probs living wit everyone. in fact, our people has married all kinds of religions in malaysia. i have relatives whom married with chinese, malays and indians. dats y many of da indigenous people looks different. da mixes of cultures and races has made us unique.

i went to an exhibition at DSI,UTM last couple of days. it is called SEED OF HOPE. a bangladesh guy came and talked to me. he mentioned about this person(i forgot). he talked bout how dat person has changed da people in his country by gardening. bcoz their country has insufficient food, therefore he starts to grow veges and potatoes. he let everyone came to his garden to farm. after years, tat place is full of different kind of people with different religions and races. dat place not only bring unity but has helped da government to produce foods. and he relates dat wit people in malaysia. he hopes dat someday when people asks u what is ur race, u will answers im a malaysian, instead of im kadazan,chinese,indian or malays.

i'll definitely will pray for him =)

to all my chinese frens, its fun to have u guys in 3SHR. even thou i less participate in ur activities, but i hope in this final sem, we can cherish ol da memories together. thnx for da guidance and help throughout da semesters. gud luck guys! =)

Soda can tabs

2011-01-14T02:03:00.002+08:00

Inbox me any number between 1 and 9999 and I'll make my status ur number and what I think about you. Fun thing is only me and you know which number is yours. Its the last day of 2010. Just give it a try and see what can I say about you..just for fun this new year eve and as a way to welcome 2011..=))

facebook currently popular with this game. haha.. secretly describing ur frens without letting others know who is dat person u mentioned. haha. it was fun thou.

but dat is not actually i want to write bout.

do u still remember how did we met? how did we became frens? during wat occasion? sometimes we met people in a weird situation and eventually became frens.. haha.. so do i.. let me tell u a story of how i knew this guy.

i met him several times be4 we actually became close frens. i drank coke almost everyday during my high school. that time collecting soda can tabs was very popular among students. everyone will kept the tabs, i dunno y. but some said they can change it for money. some said it can made into an artificial leg. haha..

so there was this guy owez came to me asking for the tabs. we didnt know each other, all i know dat hes very into collecting those tabs. haha.. sometimes i will kept it myself and handed to him whenever we met. but we never get to know each other or asking each other's name. until one day,he joined the athletic team. we were in da same event dat tym, he was in da upper form meanwhile i was in da lower form. we soon became friends.. he was like my big brother.

after da regional tournament, he didnt manage to qualified to da next level. so we only met after school. im still in da team therefore i owez stayed back for afternoon traning. so we will hung out mostly playing basketball at da hall before he went home. one ordinary day, i was asking him how did we became frens, and he pointed to the field.

"there, u and i were in da same sports event" he said.

"is it?" i asked

"yeap" he replied

"nolaaa.. we actually have met before dat." i answered

and i took some tabs from my pockets and show to him.

"now u remember??"

he smiled.

"u know wat, every time i see soda can tabs, i see ur face" he said

i hope he still remember me whenever hes looking at a soda can tabs. coz everything is only a piece of good memory to b remembered now.

so guys, cherish all da small things dat happend in our lifes, sometimes a small thing can bring a huge impact to others. how bout doing this simple action, starts ur day by smiling towards people. we never know wat will happen wit dat smile. =)

happy owez =)

the 1st ever Glass Temple in the world!

2011-01-11T09:08:00.008+08:00

the sesama meeting was held last weekend. therefore fthr Jojo brought some of us to visit the first glass temple in da world - the Arulmigu Srii Raja Kaliamman Temple located at jb. this temple is one of da oldest temple in Malaysia since 1922. the temple was demolished in 1989 to make way for a new temple. but it was stop for some management issue. all da committee members left da temple. then turn up a young graduate teacher named Sinnathamby Sivasamy took da risk to continue wit da temple building. he asked for personal loans juz to build da temple again. since the grand opening of the glass temple on the nov 25th 2009, it has become one of the main tourist attraction in malaysia. all visitors from all over da world had come to visits. the temple also received a special coverage by media- the US Time Magazine and the star.

what i like about this temple is, it is very different compared to any religious place i ever visited. u will be amazed rite after u step into da temple. it is not only a temple, but a palace! very beautiful palace indeed. initially i thought that da glass temple is like a building made of transparent glasses. but it is not. u can see da pic below. another good thing bout this temple is dat, all guru's and Saints of each religions are being placed here. u can see statues of Jesus Christ, Lord Buddha, Swamy Adishankara and many more.. there are total of 10 spiritually renowed Gurus and Saints being placed. Sinnathamby is the chief priest whom called by his followers as guru Bhagawansittar is a person wit full of faith towards every divine masters. he had many calling(hidayah) which led him to build up this temple. their main belief is GOD IS ONE.

we had da opportunity to join their never missed prayer which is the ammavasai pooja. they sang a lot. feels like a praise and worship session. haha.. i enjoyed it =) i owez believe dat in order to have strong faith in ur religion, u must learn other's faith too. u not only need to have deep knowledge in ur own religion, but as well as others. it brings no harm to u. ive been to many religious places mainly da buddha,hindu,sikh and muslim. had a religious dialog to learn more bout their religion. there are many questions in our mind bout other religion and we often heard da answers from our frens. y they praise da statue? y they do this do dat.. y they need to burn something.. everything has a reason and explanation for doing dat. sometimes people get wronged by the article in da internet.. people can write anything, if u wan to know da truth. ask from da educated one. whatever it is, we need to respect their prayer styles.

im so annoyed when people told me to hide my cross necklace. dat is da simplest thing dat show how narrow minded and lack of tolerance. a strong believer and faithful person will never say such a stupid things. dont tight up in ur comfort zone my friend. try to go out and learn other's faith. dun juz listen or read bout it. EXPERIENCE IT yourself!!

till then. im still working on my vlog challenge. mayb need a little more time.. =) here r some of da pics. took this from Amanda. hhehe =)

da cycle of life. remind us to do good things =)

mixture of 6 different colors. amazing huh..

this is interesting. the pic represent the 3 main races in malaysia. da left pic show us the indian is protecting the cow, meanwhile da chinese protecting the dog and malay protecting the cat. it is very true! and da right side is a picture of an accident. where da christian is helping to lift up da motocycle, meanwhile da injured hindu hepled by the muslim to get up. and da buddha help to get da helmet.. a simple pic but very meaningful! =)

we joined their prayer..

this is wat we called religious dialog.. hehe =)

outside of da temple

12 Days Vlog Challenge

2010-12-29T20:28:00.003+08:00

i found this very interesting challenge. i accomplished the 30 days challenge previously. well, im not really answered da questions daily. haha.. at least i tried. this challenge quite similar wit da previous one. but this time i need to answer da questions by recording a video! haha..definitely no written words... interesting huh? hehe.. i will start answering next year! ahahaha.. poor me, i cant bring my dad handy cam to jb.. so i juz use watever i have.. =) my blog is not productive during this holiday.. will start blogging actively after final sem started. o yeahh.. im a final sem student! going to b a freaking busy days after tis.. last sem results is awesome.. im really2 grateful.. hopefully will have da same results next sem. or even better. haha.. need to aid extra oil. yosh!!!

till then..

finally =)

2010-12-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

Day 27 : LISTS 5 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO IN YOUR LIFE.

only 5? this is hard. haha.. i have bunch of things to accomplish in my life. hmm..

1. i wan to get Master.. yosh!!! =) PhD is beyond my ability.. hahahahaa..

2. i wan to be a lecturer. teaching psychology and counselling subjects. at least this is my current ambition. haha..

3. i wan to have a happy family.. with cute children =))

4. i wan to get high income. enuf to buy a freelander. hahaha! well money isnt everything. but u can get many things with tons of money. ryte? almost everything!

5. last but not least. i wan to lead a happy life.. =)) with my beloved families and friends =)

Day 28 : YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION. WHY?

definitely my family. they are my everything =)

Day 29 : A PLACE WHERE YOU FEEL MOST COMFORTABLE. A PERSON YOU MOST COMFORTABLE WITH.

i bet mostly people feels dat home is da mot secure place, where they can feel da most comfort and love. well, im on the hand. totally opposed. i feel da most comfort when i can get freedom. a place where i can do anything i want. it doesnt matter where, as long as i can get and do wat i want, i feel da comfort. ultimately. =) for da 2nd question, i have tons of them. =)

Day 30 : WHO ARE YOU? WHEN ARE YOU YOU? WHEN ARE YOU NOT YOU?

do u ever heard of "being human is not being what u are, but being who u are". this quote has answered all da three questions actually. =)

i took several days to finish up this last 4 questions. i stuck at question 29. i didnt have answer for dat. so ive been searching. da thinking led me to no where. haha. i decided not to think and juz write anything.

i dun feel like blogging during this holiday period. besides i dun have camera phone to take pics for every events i participated. haha.. holidays is 2 weeks more. gonna fully make use of it. hmm... been driving almost everyday. need to familiarize every roads in KK. haha.. =)

till then..

4 more to go =)

2010-12-10T01:02:00.001+08:00

Day 24 : TELL US THE FIRST TIME YOU FELL IN LOVE.

as far as i remember.. i never really fell in love.. haha.. but i had lots of one-sided love. haha.. pity me..i had tons of crush thou.. i dated none of them.. hahaha

Day 25 : ARE YOU REBELOR OR DO U LIKE GOING WITH THE FLOW? WHY?

hmm.. depends on da situations. haha..but im a planner =) i'll make sure i prepared enough before decided on something. but i'll get upset if it is not run accordingly. haha.. i mean really2 upset!

Day 26 : A TIME WHEN YOU HURT SOMEONE'S FEELINGS AND DON'T REGRET IT.

i had once broken someone's heart. to be frank, i didnt feel any regret. i think ive done da rite thing. da rest i keep it myself =) and i'll make sure da same thing unrepeated. ever again..

4 questions more and im done.. i didnt fulfill my promise to answer da questions everyday.. sorry for dat.. been busy with house works.. haha.. =)) i have no idea wat to blog after finish with this challenge.. haha.. this blog is not being productive lately huh. i blogged nearly 300 posts, its really amazing. ive been reading my older posts. reminiscing da old days. haha. well, surely im getting gud with words and most importantly, da changes i make. i started blogging after finished matriculation up until now. everyone has their own reasons to start blogging.. im not da exception. for me blogging is like journaling. i make a journal of every important events happend in my life. i want to cherish it so i blog it. so dat i will not forget. i wrote diary previously. and da diary will be burned or threw away... i did dat every year. haha.. im afraid someone might read it accidentally. haha.. weird huh..

15 days before xmas.. hopefully get to meet santa.. hohoho =) (im too old for dat.. haha)

home sweet home =)

2010-12-07T19:56:00.004+08:00

da delayed questions are answered =)

Day 19 : HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY? IF NOT, WOULD YOU?

nope.. never =)

Day 20 : IF YOU COULD HAVE A WORLD OF YOUR OWN, WHAT WOULD IT BE? WHO WOULD BE THERE? WHAT WOULD YOU DO THERE?

i like the vampire diaries series a lot! wit all da vampires, werewolves, witches and warlocks thingy going on.. hahaha... i like magical stuff.. harry potter sounds good too.. or narnia =))

Day 21 : SOMETHING YOU'RE ASHAMED OF

my teeth! hahahahahahahaha! i need to repair all of it! haha.. but not now.. da surgery cost me quite a bunch of money.. =(

Day 22 :

SOMETHING YOU'RE PROUD OF.

emm.. oh yeah.. i hold a national record. hahaha.. =) (well inter-MJSC does it count national? hhaha)

Day 23 :

WHAT IS YOUR PASSION? HOW DID IT BECOME SO?

hmmm... my passions are changed regularly.. haha.. but currently i enjoy photo editing.. even thou im still beginner.. i do it for fun.. my coursemate, Lok introduced me this china software for editing pics.. u can try too. juz search 'meitu', i warn u earlier, da language used is mandarin. =)

its kinda bored blogging without pics attached. huhu.. im at home now enjoying my holidays. nothing interesting happend.. yet. hahaha.. looking forward for any outing with fams and frens =)

1 Week challenge answered!!! =)

2010-12-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

Day 12 : CHOOSE A SONG THAT SUMS UP THE YEAR YOU'VE BEEN HAVING SO FAR.

im not so sure.. haha.. life is kinda ups and downs. if u really wan to know.. all da songs in my playlist represented my moods or feelings.. so i change it regularly depends on my life situations =)

Day 13 : IF YOU EVER ENDED UP IN JAIL, WHAT CRIME YOU HAVE MOSTLY COMMITTED?

hmmm... sabotage someone i think.. hahaha! for example burning someone's house. haha! i usually have this extreme grudge towards someone whom i disliked.

Day 14 : YOUR LIFE STORY IN 3 WORDS

Faith. Friends. Family 3 most important parts of my life =))

Day 15 : A PRANK YOU'VE PULLED ON SOMEONE AND A PRANK SOMEONE'S PULLED ON YOU. WHAT WERE YOUR FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS THROUGH OUT EACH. HAVE YOUR FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS CHANGED?

susah jg ni. haha when i was in standard 2 i had a fight with a sino-filipino guy. he was newly transfered to our class, hes a bit sissy but pretended not to. haha.. so i owez joshed him saying pundan2.. haha.. n he wud replied "eleh.. ko pun apa sama.." and then we wud chased one another.. haha.. its a bit funny... for me i had da same exp.. frankly to say, people often called me sissy or whatsoever. it was da worst during primary school. haha.. esp da bad guys.. and things get better after i entered high school. i was good in sports somehow make me looked like a muscular boy.. people perceived me as a kind and soft boy instead. haha! eventually ive became gud frens with dat boy whom i owez had prank with.. now im not dat easily hurted by people saying me sissy or wat.. things get changed and i like it now.. u need to find people whom can accept u da way u are. n u nid to get rid of those people whom have different policies. n ur life will be more meaningful =)

DAY 16 : WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR RIGHT NOW?

indeed my future.. i have fuzziness and haziness vision about it.. it scares me.. really

DAY 17 : YOUR FAVORITE CHILDHOOD MEMORY

I had plenty of it!!!!!! but my fav is 'cari duit d bawah kulung klinik'.. hahaha.. i dunno wat is kulung in actual bm word. i lived in a clinic quarters during my childhood, after da working hours ended at about 5pm, all da kids will bustling up to da bawah kulung klinik to collect coins. ahahaaha! funny huh? well it is a wooden clinic. when people wanted to pay for their medical fees or medicines, their coins often came off and fell into da ground. maksudnya d bawah kulung la. its very dirty down there. hahahhaa.. but da kids love it! if u faster enough u will get rm1 or more! i cud bought cola if i collected enuf =))

Day 18 : IF YOU WERE GOING TO HAVE 10 KIDS, 5 GIRLS, 5 BOYS, WHAT WOULD THEIR NAMES BE?

good question! i like this.. i start wit da boys

1. Ethan Walton - my fav =)

2. Nathan Walton

3. Damon Walton - TVD influenced =.=

4. Kelly Walton

5. Ashley Walton - i find it somehow cute

da gurls

1. Bianca Walton - my fav for da gurl

2. Trinity Walton - =)

3. Ashton Walton

4. Lyla Walton

5. Bella Walton

Sem 5 is ended! =)

2010-12-02T17:44:00.003+08:00

this morning was my last paper. it went well i guess. haha.. im getting gud at 'goreng-mengoreng' thingy. haha.. da exam was held at p19 hall n everyone were sitting next to each other. haha.. so da guys took da chance.. im sitting nex to Fida.. its kinda funny when da eng words translated to bm. i answered in eng.. i bet many of us answered in bm. how? sndri main translate da notes la. hahaha.. its easier to goreng mah.. haha.. they said. so i asked fida how u translate 'insecure job' ? she said. kerja tidak selamat. what about middle-aged employee? n she said pekerja pertengahan umur. really? direct translation! but its gud thou... u can write many things if u wrote in bm.. bhsa ibunda kn.. n mostly stdnt scores! but im still wit eng.. im not dat gud actually, but practices makes perfect.. no one can deny da importance of eng. rite? =)

i had some cleaning juz now.. i had no tym to arrange my things properly during exam week. stdy jak kerja kan... this is how my stdy table was.. n my king sized bed. hahaha! im staying in a double room without roomate bh =)

UTM stdnts must b aware of this high bump. before it was not painted, it was not clear esp during nyte. so ari2 la dengar kreta patah sayap. haha.. it is juz rite in front of my room.. but after it is painted. no more unpleasant sounds =)

i will cont wit da 30 challenge tonite. need to get ready. going to dispatch anthea to aiport.. till then =)

Raja Petra Kamaruddin interview

2010-11-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

i bet many of us know this guy very well.. whom running the malaysia today website.(click on the title to go to the website)

the interview was for my a bit funny. haha.. i purposely post this link for my dad to watch. haha

RPK(click this to watch da interview)

dad, dun read da newspapers and watch all da news thru television dat often. from now on malaysia today will be ur alternative news resource =))

STOP!!!

2010-11-28T11:31:00.002+08:00

stop blogging for awhile. need to concentrate on my studies. 2 papers more =( will resume after 2nd of dec ya =))

i accidentally skipped day 10. hoho

2010-11-26T01:49:00.003+08:00

DAY 10. HOW DO YOU REACT IF THE PERSON NEXT TO YOU IS CRYING?

em.. if da person crying is my acquaintance, da 1st thing dat i will probably do is asking dat person, any problems? y are u cying? trying to act super duper caring towards dat person.. i bet everyone will react da same.. haha but if da person crying is someone whom i unacquainted, i will probably run away from dat person. haha.. manataw dia gila.. haha

DAY 11. YOU'RE LOCKED IN A BIG CLOSET WITH 3 PEOPLE, WHO ARE THEY, HOW DID U GET LOCKED IN THE CLOSET AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

what a question is this? haha.. well dat person probably are my childhood friends. we usually called their names Bunal, Iwan and Apiz. haha.. their exact names actually are Marzuki, Azwan and Hafiz. one of our favourite childhood game is hide and seek. or usually sabahan people called it 'tapuk2' haha.. our favourite place to hide was in the closet. especially da one dat full of old shirts and blankets. sampai berpeluh2 di dalam pun still tahan2. hahaa!

Day 9

2010-11-24T12:08:00.002+08:00

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF?

i feel totally awesome being me! haha..

i sti for my 2nd paper for final exam yesterday - adult learning subject. i answered a question related to adult developmental tasks. frankly to say, i think dat da answer was a bit out of topic. but its not a big deal anyway. do u remember during ur age between 1-6 years old. what were da tasks dat u learnt? basically, u learn how to walk, to touch and to imitate other people. u wanted to do what other people performs. then something came up in my mind. there is a verse written in da bible. God tell us to b juz like children in order to enter his kingdom. y? because children is pure, innocent...haha.. there is a good video clip dat demonstrate this. try to click this link to see da vdeo

Within Temptation - Utopia.

see how is da ending captured. =)

ok. back to da point. as i mentioned earlier. i love being me. there r times when i sit alone and reflecting my journey towards becoming the 'me'.. i changed a lot. i mean really.. a lot... haha. my attitude and physical. whether its externally or internally. but wat i have change da most is probably my faith.... dats what i feel good about me ol da time =).. haha..

Day 8

2010-11-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

IF YOU COULD HAVE ANYONE NEXT TO YOU RIGHT NOW, WHO WOULD IT BE AND WHY?

i should b stdying now. haha

a tough question.. hmm.. who will dat be?

i once had a Lundayeh close friend.. i forgot his name. i knew him when i was in primary 6. he was from the other school. we were in da same athletic team representing KK north. he was very friendly and talkactve.. he told me dat lundayeh people mostly looked like him.. have a white-skinned and brownish hair colour.. i remember one sentence of Lundayeh words taught by him. "ui fian nemu" haha.. it means i love u =) i never met him after we separated. i really wan to meet him. maybe because i havent meet any lundayeh people till today. =)

Day 7

2010-11-22T15:21:00.000+08:00

WHAT WAS ON YOUR LAST SHOPPING LIST?

two pair of boxers! haha.. i bought red and orange in color at Jusco. i only paid 18 ringgits and da material is very comfortable =)

Day 6

2010-11-21T02:25:00.004+08:00

WRITE A LETTER TO A PERSON YOU'RE CLOSEST TO.

this one is easy =)) i interpret 'closest' as someone whom i shared almost anything to, in other word, my best friend =)

as usual, i start with some reflection before i write da letter. well, i need to recall everything before i come up into a conclusion.

as far as i remember, Joshua was my earliest closest fren. i remember we were so close during primary 1.. he even took his money box to school juz to bought me food. haha! but he caught by our teacher. there was a weird policy in our school dat tym, u cant bring too much money or else u will be asked so many questions by da teachers. haha. budak2 kan mana bleh bw duit byk.. rm1 is enuf =) but we became less closer after he changed class. he is a hairstylist =)

joshua

after dat i had a new closest friend named katherine =) she was a tomboy gurl haha! quite another thing for my personality. im a bit sissy dat tym.. even now. haha! she had a bunch of boyfriends. she was like my guardian angel dat tym. no wan can bullied me as long as her standing beside me. haha! she was very good in studies too. again. our relationship lasted until primary 6. =( i never met her since then =(

during my highschool pperiod, i had a closest friend named suchini. a very multi-talented sports gurl. shes very good in basketball and athletic =) participated in many tournaments even represented malaysia =) she has deep faith in her religion. gave me lots of religious book too =) we became less closer after we transfered to different schools at da same tym. i went to MRSM meanwhile she went into sports school =) shes now working as a firefighter. ow ya i forgot to mention lauying. my 2nd handsome closets gurfriend =) a high maturity gurl i ever met! =) currently stdying food science in Singapore =)

Suchini

lau ying hui

soon after dat i had a new bestie named manuel =) he is probably da person dat knew almost everything bout me. haha.. we shared a common interest too - gossiping! hahahaha.. hes very hard working guy. currently stdying medicine in India =)

manuel

after we separated from highschool, i met various people. khalid was one of my close friend durng matrx =) he is da most funny person i ever met in this utopia! haha.. he helped me a lot and very gud in telling jokes. i miss da late nyte hang out wit him =( currently styding software enginering in UiTM, SA.

khalid

how i wish i can write every letter to u guys.. but i can only choose one person. so i decided to write to this person. =)

skrang baru start da letter. haha!

"dear thommy,

i still remember da 1st tym we talked. u were asking about athletic thing dat day. well, dat was da day when we actually became friends =) we shared a common interest. we like sports very much! especially athletic,swimming and volleyball =) i will owez cherished ol da memories dat we had been through. i miss our days during matrx. we went to siswi cafe every morning to have breakfast before went to lecture hall. and having dinner together evry nyte. every little things we did means a lot for me =) u knew i had personal problems during dat tym. even i myself didnt know wats happening to me. but u were owez there. listening to every single thing i said. sorry for da troubles i make. i knew u had lots of problem too. but still u never sick of me. it was 3am, and i was having hard tym to sleep. and u know i cant sleep alone, so offered me ur bed for me to sleep. thank u for dat =) i was struggling hard to find my true self, and u were there accompanied me along da way. again, im so grateful for dat =)

im very sorry whenever u have probs, when u needed someone, i was not there. i tried my best to help. but it wasnt enuf ryte? im sorry.. above all, i wish u ol da bez. i will pray continuously for blessings in ur studies, in relationship wit ur loved one, ur family, and everything u ask in prayers will be granted by God.

thnx for being my closest person, mie =)"

Thommy Jok Uvang =)

ari2 emo.. this letter supposedly private and personal kn..but ive oredy edited some of it.. hahaha! da original letter will only have u alone to read.. haha.. just like Jimmy said juz now.. make 2 letters.

mission accomplished for day 6 =)

Day 5

2010-11-19T12:57:00.002+08:00

WRITE A LETTER TO SOMEONE YOU'VE NEVER MEET.

if God let u live, my life probably will differ much by now..

theres a time when mom asked me "do u wan me to adopt a child? so dat u can have a younger bro?" i unhesitatingly answered " i wan i wan! dat wud b fun =)"

haha.. but mom didnt take one.. so this letter goes to my younger bro, a person whom i have never meet or never will..

i juz call ur name willy. i think dat name fits u well =))

"willy, i often find dat being youngest child is da luckiest among others. u know y? u'll get everything u want regularly. u feel protected ol da time. everyone are pampering u...no matter what u do, u'll be watching from every angles. u r in ur 20s.. but yet everyone still thinks u r dat baby boy.. i think dats da curse for being da youngest. u will never grow up in their eyes.

so willy, if u were around. life wud be even great. =) well im sure i'll be da role model for u.. trying to act cool in whatever things i do.. u'll be using my things. my shirt, pants, shoes, bags n so forth. i dun mind. mom will ask me to help u in ur studies. haha.. sending u to school early morning, and fetch u at da afternoon. i dun mind to accompany u to go anywhere.. going to saloon for a haircut, want me to be ur hair consultant. u wan to have da most up-to-date hair among ur fren.. n u asking me to buy da latest brand of adidas shoes. well u need to wait until i got my 1st job. haha! it wud be fun dun u think? =)

above all.. i really hope i have bonnie's witch power. so that i can send this letter and arrive safely to u =) as for me, u will owez b da youngest , im juz taking over ur place for a short while. hoping dat i live up to be an awesome youngest child, juz da way u wanted to b.. =)"

lots of luv,

your 2nd big bro =)

Day 4

2010-11-19T01:14:00.002+08:00

words u live by. why do u like them?

i have 2 actually =)

1. "either u want to follow others or u create ur own world for others to follow"

2. "i dun know wat is da ingredient to b success, but i truly know dat da main ingredient to b a failure is try to please everyone"

formerly i had a policy in life. where i treated others nicely n hoping dat they wud responsed da same.

i tried to please everyone.. be as nice as possible. i wanted everyone to treat me nicely.. im afraid dat people wud ignored and disliked me. im very sensitive in the eyes of people surrounding. im so uncomfortable when people judging me.

but i was wrong for having dat policy bundled my life for so long..

i met kak rosfah when i undergo my industrial training in TM berhad not so long ago. . haha..she is a very enthusiastic lady. i like meeting those kind of people. brings energy to everyone. she owez had this cheerful and bright facial expression. =)

so, i wrote a status post in fb , it sounded like this :

"its hard when u were in da middle of 2 worlds. u dun know which one to follow" (something similiar. haha)

so kak ros replied :

"neither to follow.. either u want to follow others or u create ur own world for others to follow.."

da words really struck me.. hahaha.. sounds selfish huh? it has a deep meaning thou. da words will owez keep and fit well in my mind..

again, she posted this in fb :

"i dun know wat is da ingredient to b success, but i truly know dat da main ingredient to b a failure is try to please everyone"

her words is in contradiction to my policy. hahaha.. i live by dat words ever since. it changes me a lot! im still a nice guy anyway haha.. but not dat low self-esteem guy anymore. i learnt to be cockier! haha

its not dat im not aware of others opinions. if people dun like u for who u are, n wat u do, wat u have.. or whatever it is.. juz remember dat those people r da people dat will push u down. take those critics and comments as a challenge for u to be even better. not try to be wat other people wants u to be.. mcm pepatah melayu. buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih.. apa yg bleh dipakai tu simpan.. yg buruk tu.. buang jauh2. haha =)

da situation will be visible when u get into working life.. where u meet people wit zillions of behaviors and multifarious. n u will think back. dat da words by kak rosfah is applicable.. =) u need to b somebody else in order to survive... da world seems cruel huh? well it isnt.. we r.. =))

disagree wit me? u shud! hahaha.. everybody has their own 'words; in life.. it doesnt matter which one u possess.. as long as u respect others =)

day 4 is over.. =)

Day 3

2010-11-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

Is the truth always good to hear? why and why not?

well.. hahaha.. let me think 1st... i think it is depends for some reasons and which situations u in. =) here is some of my opinions at his point in time =)

let me give an example :

nivea is deeply in love with a guy. da guy knew dat she had a feeling towards him. but in other hand, da guy had no feeling for her. but nivea is a gurl with a high vim. she never give up. she know dat one day, da guy will eventually fall in love with her. she never wants to listen to her friend's advice. she knows what they will say to her.

by looking at da situation above, nivea needs a lot of courage to accept da truth..is it good to her? i dun think so.. y? because heart is probably da most fragile thing in her life in dat very moment.. da truth is owez hurts when it comes to one-sided love =)

actually theres lot of example i can give but this is da 1st thing dat pop out from my mind da moment i read da word of TRUTH. n at da same time, da song 'when i look at u' by miley was playing n my winamp playlist =) so ter-jiwang la skit. hahaha...

but if so, truth lies in someone's faith. afraid to know da truth means u have a little faith in u. im starting to accept da truth about me.. litle by litle.. n yes.. it does help me in many ways.. u shud try to face it too.. doesnt matter how da consequences u'll get after knowing da truth.. trust me! it gets better =))

wait, did i answer da question correctly? haha! no bother, day 3 is done! =)

Day 2

2010-11-17T13:29:00.008+08:00

list ten people who you would die for.

if it is real la. hahaha.. im not dat stout-hearted enuf to die for da sake of someone.. hmm.. but i put this people on my list.. hahaha

1. 1st and foremost, dat person wud be my Mom. i was thinking shud i put my dad 1st or my mum.. but eventually i picked her. y? coz she is a lady.. man wont die for another man unless got some bromance issue.. hahaha!(teda2)

mamy wit her new glasses

2. dat person wud b my dad =) y? well i cant think of any reasons y i shouldn't die for him. =)

3. next will be my siblings. hahaha.. i rank it from da oldest.. so da 3rd one wud b ma big sister =) i usualy call her name dodon.. well i miss her cooking =) he definitely wont let me die for hunger. hahaha! cant wait to taste her hand-made cake when i go back =)

4. this one goes to ma sister too -tulo =) again y shud i die for her? haha..there was a tym when i was nearly dead because of boredom, she saved me from it!!!.. took me anywhere juz to have fun.. haha =)

5. boboy is da 5th person dat worthy to die for.. haha.. he might be da person whom i quarreled da most. haha.. n yet i dunno wat da reason to die for. hahaha

6. next person will be very hard to choose.. ow ya.. dat person wud be my grandma =))

7. i save this for my future soulmate =)) who will dat be?

8. this is definitely for my children. haha =)

9. i think i wud probably dun mind to die for my godfather.. i forgot his name. =)

10. lastly, i wud die for da sake of protecting myself.. hahahahaha!

day 2 completed! =)

Japanese exchange students

2010-11-16T21:08:00.002+08:00

a group of highschool students from japan aged between 16-18 went to UTM this morning. they were having a trip to Singapore and Malaysia to learn da cultures. da trip is one of their criteria in da school. from wat En fauzi said, in japan, the students have their own savings from da moment they entered highschool. da school is responsible for saving da money until an expected amount. they will use da money for any travelling trip to another countries.. soo good! haha.. UTM oso have this kind of activity called GOP( global outreach program )u see, japanese have this kind of activity in the earlier period of highschool! haha..

da session was fun! everyone has 2 person to guide. i got 2 kawaii gurl named selena and souri (i dun know how to spell it. haha).. da japanese are not gud in eng.. its hard to comunicate actually..i asked so many questions.. but cap it all, i juz said "nevermind" hahaha..! i need a translator!

the japanese like to do da 'peace' thingy when taking photograph.. rasa kiut la kali kan. haha! but they are indeed a very cute fella =))

we learnt 2 types of dances.. one was using a thing called 'naruko' and another one is a dancing of 'farmer' doing farming.. i wud say. hahaha! its fun.. n we teaches them how to play 'batu seremban', kompang and gamelan.. =))

naruko

it was again affairs of great moment! im looking forward for any event like this in da future.. =))

group photo =)

Day 1

2010-11-16T18:00:00.001+08:00

why are u doing this challenge?

emm.. actually im so attracted by Fiona and steffi entries about da 10 days challenge. but da questions are all about their boyfriend. too bad i dun have 1. hahahaha.. so i googled to find another challenge which is not da same. i think it was fun to answers all da questions.. =)

dun get me wrong, im not 'Abigail', trying to seek attentions by posting evry little things bout myself.. haha.. i juz wan to share my life experiences and do some reflections on my past =)

here r da links of their blogs.. =)

Fiona Steffi

enjoy!

THIRTY DAY CHALLENGE

2010-11-16T00:55:00.003+08:00

DAY1. Why are you doing this challenge?
DAY2. List ten people who you would die for.
DAY3. Is the truth always good to hear? Why or why not?
DAY4. Words you live by. Why do you like them?
DAY5. Write a letter to someone you’ve never met.
DAY6. Write a letter to the person you’re closest to.
DAY7. What was on your last shopping list?
DAY8. If you could have anyone next to you right now, who would it be and why?
DAY9. How do you feel about yourself?
DAY10. How do you react if the person next to you is crying?
DAY11. You’re locked in a big closet with 3 people, who are they, how did you get locked in the clo and what are you doing?
DAY12. Choose a song that sums up the year you’ve been having so far.
DAY13. If you ever ended up in jail, what crime would you have most likely committed?
DAY14. Your life story in three words.
DAY15. A prank you’ve pulled on someone and a prank someone’s pulled on you. What were your feelings and thoughts through out each. Have your feelings and thoughts changed?
DAY16. What is your biggest fear right now?
DAY17. Your favorite childhood memory.
DAY18. If you were going to have 10 kids, 5 girls, 5 boys, what would their names be? (first or full names)
DAY19. Have you ever ran away? If not, would you?
DAY20. If you could have a world of your own, what would it be like? Who would be there? What would you do there?
DAY21. Something you’re ashamed of.
DAY22. Something you’re proud of.
DAY23. What is your passion? How did it become so?
DAY24. Tell us about the first time you fell in love.
DAY25. Are you a rebel or do you like going with the flow? Why?
DAY26. A time when you hurt someone’s feelings but don’t regret it.
DAY27. List 5 things you want to do in your life.
DAY28. Your most prized possesion and why.
DAY29. A place where you feel most comfortable. A person you feel most comfortable with.
DAY30. Who are you? When are you you? When are you not you?

will b start answering tmrw =)

Tea Garden Restaurant, Mukah (hahahha!)

2010-11-15T23:06:00.004+08:00

we had our lunch near to Sutera Mall today =) we initially wanted to go to Tampoi. but da restaurant was close. Milt brought me there when i had anemia last tym.. hoho.. we were searching for liver n they selling bak kut teh =) it was delicious thou..

although the price is a bit costly.. but it was worthy! its very pleasing.. da food n da environment =) bak kata emie, bgni la rasa cendol d Mukah! hahaa!

i had a terrible headache as soon i reached hostel... i took a book and read for awhile.. n without my realise, i was sleeping in a crack. haha headache was still attacking after i woke up.. i decided to jog but return back after a short walk.. da headache is getting worse.

blogging again later.. need to read up now =)

fun time is over! back to da real world =(

2010-11-14T22:20:00.001+08:00

woke up late again this morning.. hmm.. i looked at da time. it was 11.11 am. i smiled =)

we went to Tun Aminah for lunch. a litle bit different from usual. haha.. we decided to enter a chinese restaurant. which only set aside abalone mee sup. haha.. eaten abalone for da 1st tym, it tasted juz like sardin or tuna. haha!

today is da last day of holidays, im going to start focusing on my stdy after this. haha.. chayok2 walton! =)

a nyte out

2010-11-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

had a freakin awesome nyte out wit ma buddies last nyte.. while da boys were having 'stdy group' in da hostel. meanwhile bunga, anthea, emie, mush and i were having fun.. haha

after had our dinner at cengal, we headed to Danga City mall for bowling. we had 2 rounds.. im not dat gud in this game actually. huhuhu.. someone can teach me how to play?

we went to SS for supper. killed our tym wit some hotzz gossips.. well not actually gossiping.. i prefer to call it expressing emotions. haha! its nice to have some deep conversation sometimes. dun keep ur disgruntled feelings conquered too long.. juz like wounds, it became worst and purulence if no medical help. da bez way is to cure.. juz like expressing and sharing feelings wit each other.. dun keep it too long.. nanti jadi mcm gunung merapi.. exploding n killing peoples.. huhu

it was mizzling steadily,n we went to Danga Bay for a walk. we ended up taking photograph at da beach. wit Mushy LG cam phone.. haha.. better than nothing wat! no need deseler.. haahaha.. trip2 jadi model. mushy is very pro when comes to posing n whatsoever. haha.. da lightning was perfect!.. we sepent nearly 1 hour there..

it was indeed one of my affairs of great moment to be remembered.. =))

here r some of our infatuation picas! haha

its been awhile

2010-11-10T11:23:00.003+08:00

today, i will be sitting for my 1st paper this sem.. english subject- reading for specific purpose. n yet i woke up at 11am coz i had insomnia last nyte.. couldnt sleep so i juz cuddling around on my bed. its very surprisingly i can sleep wit da lights turned off now. hahaha.. but my winamp will never silents. haha!

im staying alone this sem. i stayed wit an indian guy during my 1st year. and my sarawakian senior during my 2nd year. it was fun thou, but it was bad during stdying period. i cant focus due to the noisiness. haha.. u know wat i mean.. no offence. so i ended up went to library stdying till nite! i enjoyed very much staying alone actually.. i can do whatever i wan.. gtuuuu <--- copied from mush. haha!

i juz hope dat dis sem will be a miracle one. i seldom skipped class.. (Coz classes r all in da morning!) i hate afternoon lectures! i really cant stand da heat.. come to JB n feel it urselves.. i owez had this terrible headache due to the heat.

i dun have any new updates actually. haha.. blogging isnt da rite tym to do for this tym being.. i need to focus and concentrate on my studies.. haha.. frankly to say, i sleep a lot!!! dats da pitfall for staying alone. no one can force u to wake up! haha.. till then..

i had a haircut again! haha.. getting shorter =) i like it.. less tym to groom. haha

take care guys =)

Final exam tips for 3SHR

2010-11-10T11:18:00.003+08:00

Adult Learning

Part A (Compulsory 30%)

2 of 4 learning orientation

Part B (15%) (Choose 1 only)

Issue and challenges

Adult talent and maturity

Experience (adult development)

Social Development (props)

Multinational vs. Adult development in Malaysia society

Training Management

Part A

Case study (20%)

4 questions - training department and example of training program

(Function of training department, model, and structure to organize training department, strength and weaknesses of

training department)

Part B

Answer 2 out of 4 (20%)

Training policy (factor and steps in developing training policy)

Training plan (1 elements out of 5)

Transfer of training (1 of 3 training design)

Training issues and challenges (external – legal issue)

Human Resource Information System

Part A

Globalization and transnational – Case Study

Relational databases (create database)

Part B (answer 1 question)

Web-based self-service/employee self-service

Competitive strategy

HRIS model

Career Development

Part A (Compulsory)

Career planning, mentoring, workshop, employee talent, career discussion for the career opportunity and adjusting

your own career (pg 188-189)

Part B (answer 2 questions)

1. Two dimensional model of career management (pg 177)

2. Career strategy in organization (pg 109, 281)

3. Career exposure and program in career exposure (pg 159)

4. Insecure job

gud luck guys =)

I MISS THEM

2010-11-02T18:10:00.004+08:00

FAMILY AND COUSINS =))

a lonely nyte...

2010-11-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

a windy nyte n im in my room doing nothing.. now its a stdy week n i havent done anything with revisions.. my bad.. i shud start by now..

ive been thinking and reflecting many things lately.. staying alone trigger me to keep thinking.. n i feel like i become dumber and dumber each day.. im like a slower picker nowadays. haha.. n i like to stay alone in my room rather than spend my time wit everyone.. i rather stays in my room doing nothing.. i dunno y.. i juz like to be alone..

last gift group was awesome.. i like da sharing part. where i listened to some of my friends sharing.. da main question was "what is ur cross dat u lifted?" i was reflecting mine.. at da same tym listening to my friends. it was indeed an inspiring stories.. i was touched by pat saying :

"when u pray for strength.. da situation became harder and harder..u wont realise dat u actually become more and more stronger.."

dats true! sometimes we pray to god for strength.. we ask for guidance.. but sometimes things get worsen.. god wanted to give us something more.. something evern greater if we can overcome it.. so juz hold on when things gets very bad.. eventually it will get better =))

gud luck for final exams! pray hard stdy smart =))

Kota Tinggi Waterfall

2010-10-31T13:40:00.004+08:00

hehe.. we had so much fun yesterday at Kota Tinggi Waterfall, one hour and a half driving from Skudai. juz like usual, lazy to write.. juz let da pics telling u da stories =))

Brothers Are Our True Heroes

2010-10-24T21:27:00.010+08:00

with da theme -brothers are our true heroes, Brother's nyte 2010 was a blast! hehehe.. im not going to describe further detail bout dat nyte.. juz let da pics tell da stories =))

da Salvatore's bro? hahahaha

muscular Jack hahaha

Ica (director), Lydia, Vero and Emie

juz arrived

with gorgeous bunga =)

sweet Carol

our VIP - Bro Leslie

da Emcee

mamam tym =)

Fel, Fifi and Grace

da brothers talked about their outfits =))

singing performances by Fifi, Emie, Lorna, patrissa and Vero

da fashion game! arghhh!!!!!

Sisters singing Hero by MC

brother's award

there are 5 awards given, da winners chosen by all da sisters,

Best Hairstyle : Walton (hahaha!)

Hottest body : Freddie (predictable)

most sexy eyes : Eric Dio ( i tot Aurel is da winner. haha)

Mr Versatile : Milton

King of da nyte : Rayner

overall Games winner : Yaw's table. =))

brothers =)

thnx sisters for organizing bro's nyte.. we love u all =))

black jackets for two =)

2010-10-21T10:38:00.004+08:00

went to buy outfit for brother's nyte yesterday.. haha.. brother's nyte will be held tmrw.. pusing punya pusing.. my bro n i decided to buy a black jacket.. its in our wishlist actually.. to get this kind of black jacket.. but never got da opportunity to buy coz of da price.. but surprisingly, we found this jackets at the SEED store with an affordable price.. ahah.. guess wat, it is less than rm100! haha...

guess who will be da king of da nyte? hahahahaha! (prasan!)

Alternative Education Program (AEP)

2010-10-13T23:12:00.001+08:00

AEP is a program especially for da orang asli. GIFT Mission Department is responsible for this program. one of the activity is teaching the orang asli. this program has been going on before i entered UTM. i was the vice coordinator for da mission department last year. i seldom went to teach da orang asli due to some other important commitments. i had da opportunity to join again juz now.. went to orang asli village at Perling with bat, ica and philo. the objective was to teach da orang asli childrens how to read and calculate..

previously, i taught da adults how to use computer and internet. n we did da teaching at nyte. its been a several months since da last visit, it change a lot. they have this new balai raya, fully equipped with tables and chairs. juz like a classroom =)

it was my 1st experience teaching the little fellow of orang asli. haha.. they indeed a good and fast learners. some of them do attend school. some did not. ages between 6-14.

after da teaching ended, we gave some of our old shirts that we collected from our frens to them. they keep asking when we are going to come again..especially da kids. but yet, we did not promise. we try to come at least once a week. they really have da passion to learn and stdy..

as an indigenous people, i do want to see da orang asli to get a gud education. there are many orang asli whom been discriminated by da government. especially their lands... a better education will open up their eyes to fight for their rights..

i went to this place ony at nyte.. juz realised dat its really beautiful!

kecil2 sda hebat berenang. haha

got tables ody! =)

2 + 5 brapa? =)

berebut2 minta gula2.. haha

before went off

OUTBAC 2010

2010-10-10T15:09:00.001+08:00

Adult learning camping was awesome!! haha. its kinda funny thou, there r no other courses in UTM dat offer this kind of subject. playing games during lecture i mean. haha.. we went camping again last friday at Broga, negeri sembilan, previous camp was at pangsun.

adult learning subject is somehow similar wit last semester subject - skill for trainer. we have da same lecturer teaching this subject. da objective of this camp is to have every group presentation done. we had 22 groups overall. every group given 30minutes to conduct their activities.. sounds adult learning to u? hahaha..

we ended up playing all those puzzle, sewing, folding origami papers and so forth.. its fun thou. haha.. i surely can open a souvenir shop after this. haha

but da most interesting part was da OUTBAC activity.. i did da rock climbing.. and some extreme sports.. like jumping from a tree.. haha.. sadly i din get da opportunity to play the flying fox.. too many people lined up and we dun have enuf tym..

i think i have da little courage to go genting now. hahaha..

here r some of da pics^^

=))

juz arrived

day 1

i forgot da name of this station.. haha

da water game was fun! haha luckily i din drop into da water. haha

my first hand-made tanglung. haha..

happy2 faces =)

before da morning sessions.. hehe

we won da folding stars game.. haha.. da deep blue shirt is our lecturer. da oren shirt is our camp leader =)

awesome coursemates! =)

wit da instructor

ready for rock climbing

rock climbing!!! i wan to do it again! =)

leap of faith station.. u need to jump and grab da stick.. its not far actually.. ur legs will shaking n numb while on da top. hahaha.. its kinda funny to see some gurls screaming like hell while jumping.. some need to be pushed.. my legs still shaking after da jump.. damn! hahhaha

group photo =)

bengkel 'saya dan stress'

2010-10-08T01:05:00.003+08:00

we had successfully done our practicum last wednesday.. even though it was not as wat we had plan.. but we glad dat it was over..

practicum is a training program which are must conducted by da human resource final year students.. so we chosen da faculty of computer science as our client. our supervisor wanted us to conduct it inside da campus, it is more easier to deal wit. plus, we dun have much money or tym to do it outside..

something went wrong at da end, da person in charged was on leave. his PA was da one whom take over his job. she told us dat they havent informed their staffs about our program. but we had fully discussed it wit them.. everything was settled at dat tym.. they even kind enough to sponsor foods n beverages. n yet she told us 1 day before da actual training tat they wanted to postpone 2 0r 3 weeks. we were sooo stresss out!!! we dowan to wait.. we wan to stick to da schedule no matter wat.. final is ony couple weeks more.. we need to finish da report by then.. we really dun have much tym...

we were so lucky to get da staff from our college.. they provided us da venue for our program. our supervisor was very supportive and willingly to let students to attend our program. students actually were not allowed to b da participants, only da workers. but our supervisor didnt see dat as something compulsory, all she wanted to see was how well we conducted and delivered the program..

during da training day, only 9 people attended. hahaha! it was so funny yet pity.. 1 is da college staff, 2 are felos and 6 r students.. everything went smoothly.. everyone done their parts with confidence.. haha.. a whole sem process ended up in a very small n simple way.. but we were sooo relieved..

we learn a lot thru this process.. we need 2 know dat, sometime something dat we plan isnt going to work out according to our will.. anything cud happen.. juz remember not to give up easily, cry as much as u can.. but remember to stand up to fight.. no matter what problem arised, there will be a solution.. u will get something better if u can overcome it. God knows, wat da bez for us..

someone told me dat, its not da destination dat matters, but da journeys dat we went thru.. i totally agreed wit dat... =)

my groupmate ^^

wit our supportive supervisor, Pn Hamidah =)

faizal was da emcee

jaga slide..

i was in charged for da ice breaking session

fida is da 1st speaker

yan's session

game - pecah-pecah gelas

vdeo presentation

hanim as da 2nd speaker..

dayah's session

baby' session

teknik pernafasan

Surat cinta session

thnx everyone for coming!!! ^^

p/s : received tons of gud compliments from everyone.. including my supervisor.. i think i stick to black from now onwards.. =)

International Festival

2010-10-06T08:51:00.004+08:00

someone was asking me during da international festival,

"r u malaysian?"
"nopee.. im borneon.."

it was an unconscious answer.. now im thinking, was dat a gud answer? hmm...

Practicum

2010-10-06T01:29:00.003+08:00

will be conducting our practicum in 12 hours from now.. we put so much efforts on it.. so many tears, energy, and time has been sacrificed.. we need everyone prayers for it success.. hopefully it will go smoothly as planned.. thnx God for ur blessing until now.. without ur guidance we unable to stand until this moment...

p/s sori for being silentall this while.. very busy wit asg this days.. ^^,

blessed sunday

2010-09-26T17:49:00.003+08:00

enjoyed our dinner at Nusa Bestari last nyte after convocation mass at SCC. i was busy wit the Harvard business Study case stdy da whole day.. i mentioned before that UTM is currently a research university, so they r using case stdies from da harvard starting this batch.. we got da case stdy 1 month earlier.. but i juz read it one day before da workshop. haha.. but da worskhop went well. despite all da analysis thing, my head was going to explode dat tym.. its really hard when u had a different opinions wit others. trying to convince others to agree with ur point. da session conducted juz like MUET. discussion among ur group members. marks given based on ur participation.

due to tiredness, i ate less during steamboat.. sayang ja bayar rm18.30. huhu.. plus had a terrible headache.. must b bcoz of da HBS workshop..

today is da 1st day of convocation. as usual, GIFT will have da flower selling. ony a few GIFTers graduate this tym.. so xbanyak la untung.. huhu.. its really nice to see all da fa family members came to celebrate. looking at their proud expression towards their daughters n sons . i cant wait for my turn! to b more special, my brother n i will graduate at da same tym nex year.. hopefully. haha...

waiting for Fiona, Lihan and Dom

continue wit da flower wrapping after lunch...

annoyed

2010-09-25T00:48:00.006+08:00

u cant force to change what is nature.. naturally the nature change itself..

dun ever try to change someone.. either u or da person will get hurt.. juz let it be.. only time can decide.

Love or Hatred

2010-09-24T21:00:00.003+08:00

people often perceive me as a kind and friendly person. in fact, i try to be a good son, brother, comrade and most importantly a good catholic.

i once attended a Life Fire Camp organised by the CSG students from UMS. from wat my fren told me, its a Christian youth camp, i decided to join coz it sounded like a happening camp. i tot its a gud way to spent my holidays by meeting new frens. but i was wrong, it was a camp for outpouring da holy spirits (direct translation -pencurahan roh kudus.. ahaha) it was my third time and unprepared for it.

but it turned out to be da most joyful day, i felt God presence. i talk to him for da first tym. apart from all da thing dat He said, i clearly remember 1 thing, HE told me to show his love to everyone.

if someone ask me who is God, my answer will be, God is Love, an everlasting love, an eternal love.

but its something which only came out from my mouth, deep inside me, hatred conquered. i cannot love and hate people at da same tym. i either love u or hate you.

i will love u with all my heart, but i can hate u even more.

ayam penyet@penyek

2010-09-22T16:04:00.004+08:00

some people call it ayam penyet, some penyek.. haha.. but its not a big deal anyway.. haha

went there 2 days ago with da Gifters..

if u come to Skudai, there are 2 famous ayam penyet restaurants.. Bibik and Pinang. da different is ony da sambal. bibik sambal is less spicy compared pinang. tapi dua2 sedap. hehehe..

d sabah ada ka ayam penyet?